Electric
Bolts across spine, down arms
Shocks wrists
Tingles palms
Tickles upon my neck, shivers my thighs
Your eyes fluttering within mine
Blonde butterflies, brimming with a brisk summer sky
Shorter, back then
Littler, then
Softer
Palm grazing mine
Heart skipped all the way home
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Metal tin
Clangs down the stairs
Socks scramble after it
Caught before the final step
Tripped
Fell
Tangled knot upon a disheveled rug
Twist of wrists, ache of knees
Bruised calf
Open the lid, lick cracked lips
Peeking in
Yay!
Closed lid, untangled legs
Leave the tangled mass in my heart, my constant and familiar
Goodbye freedom, taste of emptiness, foggy void upon soul & across mind
Welcome
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I wake up
Drops of dew wrestle across the tent
A lonely moth flutters
Dawn peeks within
Turn over
Asleep
You
Heart soft, smooth
broken
Still beating
Faster
Hair tickling your forehead, peeping out of your arms
Eyelashes fluttering with each breath
The burn of a cold breeze
Your fingers, small, smaller than mine
Same age, yet you are already stronger
Muscles quiver in your sleep
Curve of your biceps, tide of your ears
Heat under my eyelids
Hover of your silhouette
Bite my lip
Turn over
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Hot autumn sun, chilly September breeze
Cascade of leaves, kiss of fog
An afternoon with you
The tin is dented & looks pitiful in the light.
Faded, worn.
Heart climbs throat, screaming in my temples.
Skin hot
You walk up to me
I know it all
The way your knees bend, how you hold your arms
Your head, always poised up, greets the world
Crinkles in your socks, folds when you smile, curls of your leg hair, bulge in your shorts
If only I had a sketchbook
If only I could draw
You could
Nothing you couldn’t do
Carry my heart, superman by the age of thirteen
Smile at me, pat my shoulder
Was I smiling back?
“Here!”
Thrust the tin out
Slight quiver, wrists unreliable
Your fingers were cold
Always cold.
You linger
Grip upon my heart
Take a bite, crumbs adrift on the breeze
I watched them tumble and toss
Dream of your hands,
Curling, tight, gentle
Your thighs, firm, warm
Pull my gaze away, tingle across my cheeks
Was it raining?
Not a cloud in sight
I could feel the cracking, over and under the music
Inside, within, between
My chest
So forlorn
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You track me, dream after dream
Peeta to my Katniss
Pretty orange sunset upon my restless mind, shining through, within
Please don’t let this end
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“Zones E and F, now boarding.”
Boarding pass, backpack, cold metal hall
Numb floor, numb feet
My fingers, too warm
I would tear apart this, atom by atom
Scatter it so far
Einstein couldn’t find
You, looking at me, drifting by, behind, before, beside...
Always reaching, your hand brushing mine
Nothing
I knew everything about you, then
Your smell in the morning, voice in the middle of the night
An abyss, abandoned by all except anger, calling your name
Icicles hanging off a toppling shed, pebble triggering an avalanche
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Reached my seat
Looked down
Crumbs upon the fabric
Your breeze, everywhere
Remnants, fragments, memories
Chase me until my legs give out
You could always outrun me
But I couldn’t find you
Why weren’t you somewhere up ahead?
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Thighs touching
Yours was warm
Hair tangled, tickled
Pencils scribbling quiet, paper etched & worn
Science around us, chemistry, geology
How could I learn? think? look?
At anything other than…
Your hand, your thigh
I find evolution, written across your palms
I trust math, our hearts dancing in synchrony
Adore philosophy, my ultimate inquiry...
Him
You
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Crumbs inside cafeteria, scattered upon your shirt
Can’t reach out to brush them away
Gulp
Warm
Is everyone staring?
Warm
Foot forward, foot forward
Faster
Slower
Look calm
Door clicking, locked
Salty silhouettes across my cheeks
Shadows I know you won't see
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A paper falls from your pocket
Glimmer of cursive adrift within the air
A convolution, contortion
You are my refreshment, thunderstorms in July, greenness of grass in March
Four leaf clover clinging to a glass of lemonade
This bitterness could no longer distract me
Feeling of finality
Your song powers mine
Picturing, feeling, breathing
You
Piano is broken, harp not strung
The music was gone, song of silence
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How much candy heals one heartbreak?
Goodbye
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The spring sun warmed my cheeks
Grass stroked my bare ankles
Trees bud, birds chatter
Flicker at the corner of my eye
Trail of ants dart past
Circular, chunky
I lean in
Crumbs?
Blink
Image plays across my mind
Fox kit in the road from the other day
Still
Morphs into…you
Blink
Was that?
Blink
Black line meandering across white frosting
Other side of the world
Decade since I saw you
The ants were carrying cake
Bits & bites, home
Pitter patter, all around
Trail of crumbs
Track it to the horizon, across the ocean
Mountains, cities, nights, stars
Trace all the way back
To you
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