Electric
Bolts across spine, down arms
Shocks wrists
Tingles palms
Tickles upon my neck, shivers my thighs
......
Eyes fixed on me
Why are they staring?
I turn to the mirror,
Gazing at my reflection,
My heart fills with fear,
The truth becomes clear.
I sense their judgment, their pity,
In a body not my own,
This life, a movie or reality?
......
An ultimatum stood at my door
And greeted me so fondly
To the tune of my thumping heartbeat.
"Live as I seem or die as I am"
The words had reverberated in my skull and rattled my bones-
Sick with grief and mourning
Of a life never lived,
A lick of air never tasted on a tongue of a new man-
Not man-soon-to-be, or transsexual or Pinocchio without the splintering of wood but of words,
......
An ultimatum stood at my door
And greeted me so fondly
To the tune of my thumping heartbeat.
"Live as I seem or die as I am"
The words had reverberated in my skull and rattled my bones-
Sick with grief and mourning
Of a life never lived,
A lick of air never tasted on a tongue of a new man-
Not man-soon-to-be, or transsexual or Pinocchio without the splintering of wood but of words,
......
Electric
Bolts across spine, down arms
Shocks wrists
Tingles palms
Tickles upon my neck, shivers my thighs
......
Eyes fixed on me
Why are they staring?
I turn to the mirror,
Gazing at my reflection,
My heart fills with fear,
The truth becomes clear.
I sense their judgment, their pity,
In a body not my own,
This life, a movie or reality?
......