It's been a week since I last showered
Can't force myself to get ready for anything
If I wake up it's a miracle 'cuz I haven't gone to bed for days
I just fall asleep with the lights on
I wish I wasn't here,
I wish I wasn't here.

Nobody knows but I'm living a lie
Sit at my desk and I'm wondering why
I have to be affected by losing my friend
And I can't talk about it with anyone

Because anyone doesn't care and I don't care about them
I guess that's why I hide and my life is a sham
How is working normal and why am I here
I'm sick of your reasoning, just let me disappear
I wish I wasn't here,
I wish I wasn't here.

If you Google depression it comes with a life line
It's 988 for if you're suicidal
I haven't called one in a while
But I'm feeling sicker so I might