A walk among the moors is where I seek solace
Among the largest expanses of heather,
To the South, the Vale of Pickering
How breath-taking, the moorland plateau,
Broken by deep vales and valleys
That embrace cultivated woodland,
It is where I seek solace,
To clear my troubled mind
A haven that understands me
Where no questions of me are asked
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1 breath 2 breath 3 breath my ribs shatter with
each inhale exhale but i have to keep on
going, just to prove i am not a myth
my name is not me, but just a pawn
I hate myself, she is not who i am
No one sees me as him but i am please
I hear that god awful name, I’m not a ma’am
People always treat me like a disease
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She's awaken by fear.
Dreams become all too real.
She wakes with a scream, gasping for just one normal breath of air.
Sweat dripping down her face.
All she can hear is the sound of her heart beating in her ears.
Chest becomes heavy -- room pitch black.
Nothing to see as she reaches behind her back for her phone. She searches for just a little light.
The fears are real and jerking at her mind. As it wonders and worries it all becomes clear, she forever has to deal with the surreal.
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In that moment I faltered, I hesitated.
The mask shattered.
The walls which had long protected the sanctuary of my mind fell away.
The world saw through the image I had portrayed all those years to protect my wounded heart.
And like the bursting of a dam deep inside.
My emotions flooded out with the strength of a great sea.
And my soul cried out with a voice of a helpless child who had only ever wished to be loved.
I saw two eastern tiger swallowtails today.
I watched as they flickered, fluttered, and frolicked, rising and dipping.
A calm breeze gently passed my way.
In the distance, a boy mirthfully turned and flipped.
A sanguine sun coyly peeked through tall pines and sweet gums.
Then a gentle voice came and caressed my ears.
I savored sweet breaths as a bee crossed and hummed.
And I heard, "Shhh! Hold on, I'm abating all troubles and banishing all fears."
I saw two eastern tiger swallowtails today.
I watched as they flickered, fluttered, and frolicked, rising and dipping.
A calm breeze gently passed my way.
In the distance, a boy mirthfully turned and flipped.
A sanguine sun coyly peeked through tall pines and sweet gums.
Then a gentle voice came and caressed my ears.
I savored sweet breaths as a bee crossed and hummed.
And I heard, "Shhh! Hold on, I'm abating all troubles and banishing all fears."
Smile for the camera because the present is here.
Right now is forever, so look neither forward nor rear.
If you are as you were, looking back one whole year,
Did you even progress, or is it just evidently unclear?
Timestamps are great, and I recommend observations at a fiscal stretch.
Start now and not later, or future you might look back with invidiousness.
Yes, set goals and expectations to mark your achievements,
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“I'm fine”
Feeling alone
In my head all the time
Not okay
Even though I try
“I’m fine”
Feeling like I want to die
I am not alright
Nighttime creeps in
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My mind is a prison.
It's full of abuse every day.
If only you heard what my brain likes to say,
And maybe on that day, I would be considered strong and not weak.
These lines on my arm are proof.
Everything in my head was too loud and I didn’t know how to speak.
I go through this week after week.
I’m glad I found my outlet; I only wish it had been sooner.
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She makes a small red line on her arm
Then covers it with her sleeve
And fakes a smile
As she prays that no one can see
She feels broken
Unfixable
She feels like a screw-up
Like no matter what she does it’s never right
Its never enough
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