I’ve got so many voices inside my head,
my Schizophrenia’s keeping them fed,
I’m starting to feel lost within myself,
think I’m turning into someone else.
I’m always planning my escape,
before my brain can escalate.
“I can’t find it,
......
The mind exits the head, the heart is being drained
Pulses bring me nearer to such a sweet release
Tears roll, cover, and dry upon that’s face
Looking in the glass that makes you myself
Choking on the lack of words I could never say
Every day brings me closer to my grande finale
No fireworks, no bangs, no tears to cry or fall
Regret fills the soul for any sign of life
Where is the angel that watches over thy’s breath
God will cry when he sees another life wasted
......
A secret whispered in the dark
Eardrums ringing like a bell in the unwatched tower
The unrevealed crash lands with the grace of a ballistic missile
Blackness embodied deep within the tenuous roots
Spreading, creeping through every last sinew
Drowning in the bile, joy lost and never found
The rapture no longer holds sway
An abyss never ending, sinking deeper to oblivion
Falling with no gravity, suspended in tortuous creation
......
blackest vulture
You wait in the shadows
to prey on me
to rob my joy
to place obstacles in front of me,
and eclipse the sun
I trip and fall
lying alone in darkness
but there I see a sliver of light.
......
I Don't Really Wanna Die Anymore
I don't really wanna die anymore
Except for when I do
I don't really hate my life anymore
Except for when I'm blue
I don't cry too much anymore
Since my heart broke in two
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Inside my head
There lives a thought
She scratches, she paws
She begs to be let out
The thumping from inside
On my temple, between my eyes
Thumping, thumping, thumping
......
I don't really wanna die anymore
Except for when I do
I don't really hate my life anymore
Except for when I'm blue
I don't cry too much anymore
Since my heart broke in two
I don't know where I am in this world
......
I Don't Really Wanna Die Anymore
I don't really wanna die anymore
Except for when I do
I don't really hate my life anymore
Except for when I'm blue
I don't cry too much anymore
Since my heart broke in two
......
I cried so hard last night
That I played a song on repeat
It was one I pulled from a Spotify playlist
That I want to assume is yours
It sounds like a lullaby
And I imagined you singing it to me
Telling me it'll be alright
And running your fingers down my face
......
Nothing
At the pit of nothing
Nothingness sits
Nothing to see
Nothing to hear or do
Nothing exists
Nothing tries to do nothing
And succeeds at nothing at all
Nothing reaches for nothing
Nothing answers when nothing calls
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