I cried so hard last night
That I played a song on repeat
It was one I pulled from a Spotify playlist
That I want to assume is yours
It sounds like a lullaby
And I imagined you singing it to me
Telling me it'll be alright
And running your fingers down my face
......
there was a dog outside and it kept
barking for some reason
Ah yes, it was chained
and the chain was terribly short
and the poor animal was hungry
Mother wouldn’t bother feeding it
No, mother wanted it
to die
because it had been father’s dog,
......
I woke up in this place. It's dark, I can't see. I don't know where I am.
I call out for help. Can anyone hear me? I don't think they can.
Fear sets in. I freeze.
My breath gets shallow and I drop to my knees.
Are my eyes closed? Are they open? Why can't I see?
What is going on? I need to stop and to breathe.
I breathe in. I breathe out. I breathe in. And out.
Is this a dream? Am I dead? What's this about?
My heart is pounding. Like it wants out of my chest.
I can feel it, so I'm real. But what about the rest?
......
I am lost.
Lost in this vast sea of my thoughts
This vast sea i was once drawing in
It felt like no more, than a empty dark bin
People never understood
Understood the darkness i always withstood
The darkness that swallowed me
Swallowed me as if i was a fly
My family, they would always try
......
sometimes the happy ending is the ending itself
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I cried so hard last night
That I played a song on repeat
It was one I pulled from a Spotify playlist
That I want to assume is yours
It sounds like a lullaby
And I imagined you singing it to me
Telling me it'll be alright
And running your fingers down my face
......
Nothing
At the pit of nothing
Nothingness sits
Nothing to see
Nothing to hear or do
Nothing exists
Nothing tries to do nothing
And succeeds at nothing at all
Nothing reaches for nothing
Nothing answers when nothing calls
......
Demons dance where none have seen,
A haunting waltz, a silent scream.
A mask of smiles, a cloak of light
Just to convince them I'll be alright
In shadowed corners, secrets keep
A heavy heart that cannot sleep.
The weight of thoughts, so extreme
I'm living in a fading dream.
......
Keep your vigil, whispers of gray –
Speak of what I do understand.
Assault the evil glare of day;
It doesn’t speak for my heart –
Rather for the city made of stone
Which knows no bounds of hate.
On this day, I’ve fallen asunder;
No love for the pieces that remain.
......
an untouchable love;
tears shed by my faults.
no apology worthy,
as you’ve been my rocks.
i want you to be happy;
to return to your home.
I simply wish this community;
will appreciate your soul.
......