I long to be held,
As if my line of sight was shared with belts,
So my tears could drain into your heart,
Whoever you may be.
Please, I yearn to be hoist off the ground,
And sat upon your shoulders,
So my toes aren't burdened by gravel roads
And I may not need these legs again
Perhaps sprout golden wings,
I long for you,
I long for you,
And Oh how I wish I could procure you,
But now that seems like such a foreign action.
That is okay.
For the first time in a while,
I am letting these legs decide for themselves,
And I will tell my mind to let them play by the riverside,
Let them experience the misguided past,
Let these legs carry me to where
I can swim in my veins,
And never need to clench this throat of mine
Clipping the chords of a songbird.

I cannot cry.
I don't know why.
Or the mist is too distracting
I cannot speak,
Maybe I am hurt,
At this point,
Little could one tell the difference.
Free my sky.
rend my vocal chords
Or have them reborn,
I do not feel like these hands are my own,
Let me exist.
I cannot but persist
Haisay
I say how I cannot
And that may be the only reason why
And as I construct this statement,
A wall erects in my mind
And
Haisay
And
Haisay
It is that easy
Masto walk,
And
Haisay
It is that easy,
Haisay
And something acknowledge
This narrative I am building
To you,
I never wanted it to be disappointing
For whoever you are,
You see all of me.
Or that all of me that I can,
Haisay
Haisay
Haisay
Haisay
Haisay
When he said that,
It always sounded like
“How ya say”
And now,
It sounds more like:
Haisay
Haisay
Haisay
Haisay
Haisay
There was a man who suffered much more than I
There are many of him,
And more than that
I cannot purge that from my mind
And I will never be able to say
How sorry I am
That you are listening to me
And I cannot speak
Haisay
I always write when my soul is screaming
You don't know how much this pains me
I wanted to give you something that showed I was okay,
And that each passing day,
My pain began to degrade itself instead of I.
I just,
Haisay
I dont care anymore.
I don't.
I don't care how long this goes,
Or what you think of me.
I just want you here.
Why cannot you help me?
Why do you just stand there reading me,
When I
Haisay
Haisay
Haisay
When I would
Try to
Haisay
Haisay
Haisaw
Hesaw
Yousaw
Me
And
Hopefully felt
Empathy
But I am still here
And until someone hoists me up
I will carry the world in my throat
And the gravel shimmers like charcoal,
And
Haisay
Aisay
Issay
itsay
Its okay
Its okay
Its okay
It is,
Haisay
Haisay
Haisay
Dont worry too much about me.
I cannot kill myself.
I have too many people here
And too little on the other side,
Please Please
Whoever reads this
I can't
I can
Hahahahahaah
I don't care what this looks like
I SAID THAT ALREADY
DI, CHOTOMY
ITS TWO THINGS
HAISAY
PLEASE,
PLEASE,
I love water.
Looking at it.
I can see nothing but the infinity
Of the conceived universe
And it's compromise in what I see
The beauty is astounding.
I will be entranced,
Forever,
By the kissing waves that procreate
And the tides that parlay the sky,
That wave at me,
Someday I will wave at them too,
Stepping as sugar in the water and melt,
So that I can no longer think
But am what I see
And am at peace
And this silly guy
Will not be himself but with it all
To whisper in his ear,
I see them too
Do not worry,
No-one can hurt you
Hhh
H
H
Hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Haisay