I cried so hard last night
That I played a song on repeat
It was one I pulled from a Spotify playlist
That I want to assume is yours
It sounds like a lullaby
And I imagined you singing it to me
Telling me it'll be alright
And running your fingers down my face
......
I search for the warmth of your arms,
But it seems too distant for me to find...
The world it tries to tear me apart,
Like I’m an object they own.
The world ‘sees’ me,
Stripping me of my mind, body and soul.
One day the glass will shatter,
Let me fall into your arms-
Let me break apart and fall into your arms again.
......
When the light lessens,
Causing colors to lose their courage,
And your eyes fix on the empty distance
That can open on either side
Of the surest line
To make all that is
Familiar and near
Seem suddenly foreign,
When the music of talk
Breaks apart into noise
......
If you ain't got family
Damn (then?) you don't have anything
There's nobody home
But they're there just the same
Ghosts with eyes you can't see
Watching from the corners like creeps
It's so scary and it's shameful I wish I had a family who wanted me
Home, I just want to be home
......
Why is love bombing a bad thing?
Given another name, it's not nearly as ill-intentioned:
Praise, lavishment, veneration.
I'd rather be bombarded with remarks of admiration
Than be met with resentful acts and indignation
My admirers may wear double-sided veils
And their bombs may be strategically cast
But who am I to dissuade such adoration-
......
I cried so hard last night
That I played a song on repeat
It was one I pulled from a Spotify playlist
That I want to assume is yours
It sounds like a lullaby
And I imagined you singing it to me
Telling me it'll be alright
And running your fingers down my face
......
Unfound love,
fills my heart
swells four chambers
spills from fractures
Puddles pile high
depths greater than my soul.
Rivulets of longing
shatter self reflection
......
I lay awake, another night to forsake
“Will you leave me now?” I ask this corkscrew ache
It’s silence is what beckons me to the floor
Another night gone knocking on that iron door
She speaks to me softly in the pouring rain
“I’ve come to soothe your own weary brain”
Grabbing her hand, I go on to sit on her stool
Only to see her treat me like some common fool
......
I'll survive,
In the shadow of our silhouette,
The tears that stain our pillow,
I'll survive
So let me cry, these blistering tears,
They won't matter for years,
They just dampen my fears,
That I'd hurt you again,
......
I am a ronin of love
With no master to serve
A woman to cherish
Care for and look after
Whom I can call my own
Floating away with false abandon
Through the sea spray of chaos that is the world
All I can do is meander
Get into mischief and
......