Today my child slammed the door too hard
And I took a deep breath and thought of you
You set the standard for how to show love
And so I shifted towards compassion
Last Sunday I met up with a friend for coffee
And she talked for so long, I got bored
I took a deep breath and thought of you
And remembered the presence you gave me
......
I am always the friend who supports you ,
the friend who helps you ,
the friend who doesn’t care ,
if the way I treat you is how you do .
I will be walking behind you in rain ,
holding an umbrella for you
so u don’t get wet .
I will be walking behind you
in pain ,
thinking if my feelings are right
......
I Don't Really Wanna Die Anymore
I don't really wanna die anymore
Except for when I do
I don't really hate my life anymore
Except for when I'm blue
I don't cry too much anymore
Since my heart broke in two
......
How my heart does pour with the blood of you
No bandage can stop you from seeping through
You have forcibly held me against my will
With a gaping hole too deep to fill
You have nurtured an existence, so solitaire
One starved of affection, in need of care
Quiet is my enemy, loud the ticking clock
Urging my life to take stock
......
I search for the warmth of your arms,
But it seems too distant for me to find...
The world it tries to tear me apart,
Like I’m an object they own.
The world ‘sees’ me,
Stripping me of my mind, body and soul.
One day the glass will shatter,
Let me fall into your arms-
Let me break apart and fall into your arms again.
......
Today my child slammed the door too hard
And I took a deep breath and thought of you
You set the standard for how to show love
And so I shifted towards compassion
Last Sunday I met up with a friend for coffee
And she talked for so long, I got bored
I took a deep breath and thought of you
And remembered the presence you gave me
......
I don't really wanna die anymore
Except for when I do
I don't really hate my life anymore
Except for when I'm blue
I don't cry too much anymore
Since my heart broke in two
I don't know where I am in this world
......
I Don't Really Wanna Die Anymore
I don't really wanna die anymore
Except for when I do
I don't really hate my life anymore
Except for when I'm blue
I don't cry too much anymore
Since my heart broke in two
......
I cried so hard last night
That I played a song on repeat
It was one I pulled from a Spotify playlist
That I want to assume is yours
It sounds like a lullaby
And I imagined you singing it to me
Telling me it'll be alright
And running your fingers down my face
......
Unfound love,
fills my heart
swells four chambers
spills from fractures
Puddles pile high
depths greater than my soul.
Rivulets of longing
shatter self reflection
......