I change the topic when your name is taken,
because I can’t help with the smile .
I see if my laugh is being mistaken
for something else but I simple decline .

Your laugh is all I need
to make me happy and fix my day .
You say a joke and I don’t laugh ,
there stands no way .

I try to think if I have a chance ,
but I always end up with a messed up mind .
Some people say you are not nice ,
but to me you’re kind of sweet and kind .

But I am never going to tell you what I really feel ,
because I know I would be disappointed .
and if you say no which I know you would ,
I would later be avoided .

So why should I ruin the friendship ,
when we can be good friends .
Why should confess if
I would later just watch my heart get snip .

I am happy with the 3 am scenarios I imagine,
even if they are not at all real .
But they help to escape the reality ,
and also helps to conceal .
I am good with crushing on you ,
while sitting in a corner of my home .
I am good with talking about you
with my best friend for hours on the phone .
I am not going tell you anything ,
so I guess you will never know what I feel.
because I know I am not that brave and
my heart isn’t made of steel.