Little Elly was a sweet girl.
Little Elly was often told that she was a very emotional and sensitive one .
One night, Little Elly was done .
That night Little Elly met a man ,
And there she began ,
Thinking and imagining a future with him
despite the slim possibility , she still sat there and continued in her room where she kept the lights dim .

She soon started noticing the man drifting away .
That was when she asked herself,
"What was it that I did that resulted in you being cold ?
Could it be that you are not ready to finally have someone to hold ?
Or is it that you are new to someone loving you in a way which is old" .
As the days went by, the man and Little Elly stopped talking .
And while she sat alone in her room, she heard someone knocking ,
It was her mother ,
That couldn't stand to continue watching her suffer .
"It is about time you leave the memories behind"
But all Little Elly wanted was true love that her heart longed to find .
As Little Elly watched the man from a distance .
She reminisced how happy she was with him .
Remembering how hair holds onto memories,
she decided to give it a trim .

Months went by ,
Little Elly was still waiting for a goodbye .
Hoping to have a closure of some sort ,
To those around her , they thought it was odd .
The Little girl Elly , had stopped being the cry baby ,
" Why have I turned this way ?
Why have I suddenly learnt to push those whom I love away ? "

There comes a day ,
That Little Elly was on her way back home from school ,
On the bus , and like how she was a fool ,
She dropped him a text ,
" Hey , do u remember me ? "
Unsure what was going to happen next .
" Yes , I do "
The Man replied within seconds ,
And finally , Little Elly felt alive once again .
She felt nothing but blithe .
Smiling at her texts in the bus , almost forgetting to breathe .
Again , the Man and Little Elly spoke ,
What could it be in Little Elly that had finally woke ?

"Dear Diary ,
Meeting him for the first time was a feeling i wished had no expiry .
As he hugged me tight like he promised ,
I could feel myself at its calmest .
I remember those sweet times ,
Where he kissed me at the red lights ,
Were the only times I felt more than alright.

And though I know , we may never be together ,
I will always remember to end this off with a simple letter . "

Everyday, Little Elly spent her days occupied ,
Meanwhile the Man not knowing what it was about that she had lied .
Little Elly , felt guilty ,
No matter how hard she tried ,
She felt nothing but shitty .
Even with the strong emotions of love and happiness gushing through her body ,
At the end of each day with him ,
She felt nothing but fear .
On the nights she spends alone at home ,
She'd fill her eyes with tears .
Again she's in her room where she keeps the lights dim ,
She had always buried her feelings in a jar ,
And now it has filled to the brim .

On her phone she sees how close the Man is with another woman ,
Little Elly kept silent ,
Restricting from becoming violent .
She could feel the jealousy built up ,
Soon she couldn't give the man anything but doubt .

They always say , Little Elly remember ,
" The more you fear it , the more it's likely to occur "
She sat and cried , until all the emotions faded in her .

Despite the nights she felt lonely ,
That never stopped her ,
Only she knew how it felt .

" Even when I could feel my heart throbbing ,
All i felt like doing was nothing but sobbing .
When I look into your eyes ,
How could i let you know that I'm in deep pain ?
Though it seems dull and nothing but all vain ,
I couldn't help but to only smile at you ,
Even when i know , you knew .
You didn't do anything but kiss me ,
'Cause you knew , you were nothing but a key
To my hollow heart . "

The months flew by quickly ,
Little Elly made a routine to run to the Man after school with consistency.
The Man had already known the feelings she had for him ,
But perhaps he thought this was all an act that is played in a film .
A romantic one .
Little does he know ,
Only Little Elly knows how much it is of a fright .

The Man then started to take a liking to Little Elly .
As so she thought she was winning in life .
Even when she knew he was just a knife ,
To that hollow heart of hers .
She continued showering him with love and gifts ,
Even though she knows that this love was only an "If" .

A night came ,
"For some reason tonight feels weird .
Tonight feels more cold ,
I could feel my hair stand , and my whole body couldn't do anything but tremble .
Could this be the last time I see him ? "
She thought .
Little Elly had always reminded him and the Man never understood why .
Little Elly had always told him ,
" This will only end with a goodbye "

" My dear , how i wish you won't leave me "
" I have finally developed feelings for you that I can't exactly explain
Because I know if I were to tell you ,
You'd be in pain ."

Little Elly couldn't take charge of her emotions .
Her tears continuously flowed down from her eyes to her cheeks .
She felt the agony within her ,
For once , she felt weak .
The pain could only drop Little Elly down to her knees .
She couldn't do anything but freeze ,
The man only hugged her ,
Hoping to give her comfort to what she was feeling within herself .

On that night ,
It was true .
It was the night that the Man got taken away  .
She felt hurt .
She begged and pleaded , for them not to take him away .
Give him mercy , as he was the one that saved her soul .
Little Elly too , has let the Man see the vulnerability of her heart that he has also stole .
No one listened to her cries ,
They said ,
" It is what is best for you "

Little Elly lost herself .
She lost all of her that she had given him to see and experience .
The girl whom he thought was mysterious ,
Finally understood why she kept many secrets .
He finally knew ,
She was still new .
She was a young little girl ,
And he is the Man .
Little Elly knew how furious the Man would be if she had told him the truth .
And though she knows that the Man will only see her as someone who is cruel ,
She was also nothing but another fool .

Despite the distance ,
Little Elly had never stopped writing letters ,
Letters talking about first love , and how she had finally met hers .
She wrote and wrote for months ,
Knowing that it would never reach him ,
She still loved him even after a year ,
She knew it was love that she felt for him .

Little Elly again sat in her room where she always left the lights dim .
The room now has turned dark .
She has lost her one and only spark .
In love , which was forbidden .