I am - that's probably good, but I clearly lack the power of my soul to spiritualize matter
After all, the ego exists as an essence - Atma-Budhi-Manas, the earthly embodiment of the Holy Trinity
God in man must become like St. George, and the dust of the earth, which is so like a serpent dragging souls to hell, must be pierced without pity with the spear of holy faith
Probably the faith that is like a horse lifts me proudly above the quagmire of small affairs, it’s just not enough and I’m drowning in the swamp of circumstances