Cascades of love,
I kept putting bricks around
how long shall I surround?
Whatever was left;
of it all—
I stood with ballistas' protruding
upon stinking patches of blood-mud;
the gates to my paradise
banished forever.
......
On a warm, dew-weakened day,
Watching the grey void of a lost
Sense, anxious moments recline
On whiffs of ancestral propitiations
When rafters regain possession of
Filched roast fish, balanced with
The fumes of a wild dance heckled
By chokes of a chagrined weekend.
Who rises faster than smokes of a
Low tar, ascending
......
nothing gold can ever stay
the kaleidoscopic colours of spring
or the falling leaves of autumn trees
are bound to perish , bound to leave
nothing gold can ever stay
be it the laughter with friends on a bright beautiful morning
or the grief after a dreadful loss on a dark desolate night
all of it must end , must change
......
The effectiveness of each individual being as a distinct aspect of the Great Spirit's self-knowledge can be determined by the degree of awareness of its existence, or, in other words, by the degree of presence of its consciousness in its being
The ordinary human consciousness, controlled by numerous destructive forces, only skims the surface of existence, only lightly touches it, generating small amounts of awareness and accumulating empty experience. Consciousness repeats the same algorithms, the same models over and over again, plays the same simple games in a narrow cycle of meaningless actions
Instead of plunging into the depths of existence, man plunges into the depths of activity, and it is activity that seems to be the measure of completeness, no matter how empty and meaningless this activity is
The main question that consciousness should ask itself is the awareness of “where am I now?” You can repeat as much as you like about the importance of the current moment, but this importance must move from the realm of ideas to the realm of action
Among the light hierarchies of Servant Spirits, there is one that is as necessary for human development as it is inaccessible to his consciousness. All magical traditions are faced with such Spirits, appearing at certain periods of Transitions, and guiding these transitions. They were called differently: Hierophants, Guardians of Tradition, Guide Spirits and belonged to the sphere of the Invisible Sephira Daath
The very concept of Daat (“Knowledge”) reflects the idea of the Drivers. Hidden Sephira - Daat lies in the middle of the Abyss, located between the Higher Sephira and the Sephira of Manifestation. Daath is neither a continuation of one of the states or aspects lying above, nor a level of consciousness, but at the same time a gate and barrier between the kingdom of complete Unity and the world of individual existence
When crossing the Abyss, accompanied by the complete collapse of a system (for example, a personality), this system may succumb to the fear of loss of individuality and identify with any part of its destroyed composition. This identification nullifies all efforts to cross the Chasm and this state is characterized by the individual’s absolute isolation of his ego; it is considered irreversible and is regarded as final spiritual death
That is why the Transition is carried out with the participation of special Forces - Drivers. Beginning with shamanic initiation, ending with highly organized initiatory mysteries of the Orders, each act of Transition is accompanied by the mysterious appearance of these Hierophants
Daath is a mobile Sephira that does not have a clear place on the Tree, its conditional position between Kether/Tiferet and Chokmah/Binah is rather a product of awareness of its role than actual existence, therefore the Initiating Spirits are related to any processes of transition. Whenever the Magician finds himself in a difficult state from the point of view of the path, an “existential crisis,” he calls on the Drivers, and their appearance indicates the right direction of movement
The “end of the world” that the Rosicrucians spoke about refers precisely to the end of one of many worlds, that is, the cycles of civilizations.
Namely, the evolutionary scheme is carried through five Worlds in seven great Periods of Manifestation, during which the virgin spirit, or developing life, must become first man, and then the Creator. Each period is assigned a certain planetary principle
The first three of the Periods (Saturn, Solar and Lunar) are considered to have already been passed. Humanity is now in the fourth or Earth Period. When this Earth Period is completed, the periods of Jupiter, Venus and Pluto will be passed in turn before the Great Sevenfold Day of Manifestation comes to an end and all that now exists is again plunged into the Absolute for a period of rest and assimilation of the fruits of evolution, to arise again for further and higher development at the dawn of another Great Day
When the Cosmic Night arrives, all manifested things turn into a homogeneous mass—Cosmos again becomes Chaos. The importance of the Chaotic Interval is that during this period the developing entities from all classes are so closely united that they are one; those, that during the period of manifestation they are lower developed, are in closest contact with the more highly developed, experiencing and benefiting from vibrations much higher than their own. This gives them the opportunity to relive and assimilate their past experiences in a way that is impossible with the interference created by the form
However, the Rosicrucians revived and developed what had been known for a long time: the development of the worlds is spasmodic, discontinuous, alternating periods of growth, expansion (accumulation of experience) and deepening (assimilation of experience). After the general destruction, destruction and death of the world comes rebirth
A careful examination of the concept of darkness showed that these two components are separated from each other by an impassable abyss, and darkness has two completely different hypostases - 1) the darkness that precedes the light, is the field of its propagation - this is the “external” darkness, Nav and 2) the darkness, which arises as a result of rejection, refusal of light - this is “inner” darkness, klippa
In other words, it turned out that although any evil is darkness, nevertheless, not all darkness is evil. Accordingly, both in macro and psychocosmic aspects, it is possible and necessary to separate darkness as a potential field and darkness as a refusal to actualize
For a magician focused on mastering his psychocosmic space, this division is difficult to overestimate. Looking inside himself and discovering fields of darkness there, he must understand whether this darkness is only a field of unrealized possibilities awaiting its design and manifestation
Only by distinguishing between the aspects of chaos and darkness can a magician find an opportunity for his development, his actualization, and, at the same time, not cultivate in himself the desire for consumption imposed by inner darkness. Then, ceasing to be a victim, the magician does not turn into a predator, but becomes a warrior, developing his own awareness and not interfering with the development of the awareness of others
Magic considers the task of any manifested state to be implementation, that is, the translation of potential capabilities into real acting forces. Whenever speaking about “do what you will,” the Magician means exactly this: realize what should be manifested.The very concept of “realization” implies that something strives to manifest itself, contains within itself the engine for manifestation, and all that needs to be done is to remove the obstacles to this manifestation
The magician carefully and painstakingly separates the “wheat from the chaff” in his consciousness, finding his own potencies, attractions, desires, and peeling them off from the husk of destructive, imposed and distorted aspirations. This is the first component of the Path – Search
The second component is struggle. When we talk about the battles of the magician, we mean precisely the active efforts to overcome the destructive components incorporated into the consciousness. We are talking about the magician fighting in his mind, uprooting the weeds and depriving the power of predators and parasites
And, in fact, the third and most important component of the Magician’s Path is implementation. It is clear that until it becomes clear what exactly needs to be implemented and until the possibility of this implementation is created, there is no talk of any development
And all three components of the Path periodically alternate on it: the magician overcomes obstacles, finds components to be actualized, and creates conditions for their implementation. Moreover, each successive implementation opens up a new field of possibilities, which also needs to be cleared and cultivated
For a magician, the perfection of the human soul is a potential reality. That is, although the Monad is a unit of self-knowledge of the Absolute, its existence is potential, unidentified, and is not capable of generating energy and producing this very self-knowledge. Like the Great Spirit himself, the monad is above the concepts of being and non-being, it is beyond duality and beyond manifestation
And, although from her own point of view she is already complete, perfect and does not need any change (and cannot be changed), from the point of view of the relative process of her self-knowledge she is only potential; actual reality is possessed by a limited manifested being
Therefore, “searching for oneself” for a magician means not just “discovering one’s inner perfection,” but the search for a suitable Path on which, in battles and hunts, the eternal actualization of this perfection will take place. Magicians created Schools and Lines with their severe discipline due to the awareness of the fact that the world, although born in goodness and for good, is fairly spoiled by its inhabitants, and considerable efforts are required to melt it in the crucible of impeccability
The sobriety of a magician’s view of the situation around him lies in his adequate assessment of his capabilities and the forces that oppose him. And the awareness won by magicians in their battles gives them that feeling of authenticity, the relevance of their existence, which is unattainable for them in other ways
Attention, the dynamic side of consciousness, determines and, in fact, creates the world in which the activity and self-knowledge of any creature takes place, and it is aimed at the products of description, and not at the process of description itself. Fixing on interacting blocks of energy, consciousness perceives only the final moment of the description - a kind of instant “snapshot” appears - that is, an image of the object
Consciousness is firmly and persistently accustomed to precisely this method of functioning - and as a result, a person lives in a world of objects, in a world of static forms, and the flow of which one into another either completely escapes attention or is recognized by him as insignificant, secondary
The basis of such functioning of consciousness is its ability to generalize - undoubtedly, a very valuable and useful ability, however, with its one-sided development, it easily turns into one-sided perception, which is very convenient for the parasite of consciousness - after all, wandering among forms, consciousness weanes itself from perceiving the flow of life, and therefore does not notice its own energetic vicissitudes, outflows and losses of strength
If the focus of attention is transferred from static, successive pictures - images to the flow of awareness itself, the flow of ideas - then they say that consciousness moves from focusing on being to focusing on itself - that is, it moves from the Macrocosmos to the Psychocosmos and only in such balance consciousness begins to work “in full force”, reducing energy dissipation and increasing its efficiency