If I am manifested, that is, from a certain number of possibilities, one could be born

I need a never-ending flow of energy, because I am locked in my vessel and I can consume the vital energy not in the form of an infinite ocean, but only as the contents of other vessels, in other words, the contents of other beings

And unlike minerals, which can absorb energy in large quantities, but can not transform it without outside help, with absorption, of course, if I am not a powerful magician, I have problems, but as a person I am better able to influence the transformation

Here I see a terrible paradox — the more developed I am, and therefore my consciousness is more differentiated, the more sacrifices I need to provide life, and if my separation, which directly reaches a limit with uniqueness, the dream of all geniuses— then I will become a vampire, maybe even a demon in the flesh