Behold; I have no fear of You
Though you are everywhere conspicuously,
though every single moment the whole universe
is not empty from Your High Excellency's presence

Behold; I have no fear of Your presence
though You are the omnipresent Almighty,
though You are a severe destroyer as well as creator,
though You are an Author of harsh punishment
as well as gracious merciful

Behold; You are present in me because of my belief
You are nothing if I do not believe You
My innocent faith makes You all-pervading, enormous
My naïve reliance makes Your shape from Stone
and make a Home for Your reservation with worship
Now the Home is empty but someone goes there to worship Shapeless You
Someone worships Shaped You out of the Home
Behold; behold I have no fear of You either You are in Shape or Shapeless
Though You are only Almighty doer in reality I, the human, am doing everything

Behold; I have no fear of You though You are the core source of the entirety
But I have fear; I fear the racist rulers of this earth
For whom still human cannot understand own-self;
I fear the preachers of the religions
For whom still human legalizes the crusades;
I fear the shrewd politicians
For whom still peoples are enticed in the brutal wars,
For the namesake patriotism dividing earth as motherlands!
I fear the so-called holy books
For which followers think that only they are on righteous true paths;
I fear the ferocious animals, the venomous snakes, dangerous birds
Bloodsucker insects, invisible assassins like the covid-19 but sorry to say that
I fear not You, no fear I have of Your mighty power!

Behold; at old age I abide by the religion-worshipping rules
To which I brought belief but all these religious praying works
Not fear of You; Actually, every birth is bound to death, fear of death
To fear of death is every born! Fear of death cultivates the fear of You
But do not think that I fear You for the terrible punishment

Behold
I fear the terrorist, robbers, thieves, killers, rioters,
I'm afraid of the biting of mosquitoes where I do not fear You

I want to thank You
Just Thank You because You gave me the freedom of speak
Freedoms of write, imagine, believe, and do whatever I want

Behold; whether You give me freedom to my whole life about anything
Till finding the truth there why Your so-called follower wants to punish me!
Is it for they found ‘Truth'? -I fear them but do not You

If You are the creator of everything then You are the only Judge of everything
But if You can tolerate everything of any wrong of the true pathfinders
Then why Your so-called followers cannot tolerate
Are they following You or Your characters really?

Everyone says- You gave them Your speech as the Books through Angels to the Messengers
And You made the messengers Your Prophets
If You can do anything why did You need the medium to send Your speech
Where someone wanted to meet You but You burnt the mountain
There You invited someone to Your harem so near that meeting was more near that two bows
or You and invited one in a one-point circle!
Where You wanted to sacrifice someone in Your name
There his successors were sacrificed brutally in Karbala field!
Where You made pregnant virgin one woman without any biological coition of man
There why still You did not make father without any woman!

I have no fear of Your power, mighty, angriness
But I have an objection- You said You can do what You want
The evil deeds, thoughts, emotions, feelings for which You want to punish the doer
Is it Your ability aspect? Isn't it?

You created evil sense is to express Your ability that You can do anything as Your wish
Either that's good or bad, no one will question Your ability but everyone has to obey Your command
Again, You said those who are unable to obey Your command You will punish them
Where You knew someone won't be able to obey Your command as Your wish
There You fixed for the weak follower cruel penalty- it's Your mighty ability! Isn't it?

You knew that - only they can follow Your command who are created by You
As Prophets, Messengers, Angels, Saints, Dervish, and whom You want as pious
And the remaining all creations are created as wicked the follower of Satan whom You created also

What's the Joker You are I do not know in whom good and bad are blended together

Whatever as a believer when I came to You reserved books there, I find
You said- You give ownership of the world those You want and snatch from those You want
You give dignity to those You want and at a time humiliate those You want
Every good and bad in Your powerful hands!
So, on this earth now superpower leaders are the owners of its kingship
Which You gave them in the time of fate written
Where the virtuous are living like kidnapped souls! Is it Your offering wish?
Killing the refugees and innocent people in wars, hungry people dying from starvation
And there You have full approval, haven't it?
If yes, why You will punish the Pharaoh, Nimrud, Hitler

If Your so-called followers Judge the wicked peoples according to Your given Holy Speech
And Punish them for abiding by Your given commands
Then Why need You the judgment day to judge everyone again
Where You said that You are the best Justice
There, if You judge again the wicked who once judged on this earth and punished according to Your wish
Isn't judgment an exaggeration? If the wicked once punished by Your law on this earth
Is The torture in after life grave on the dead soul by Your appointed angel excess? is it Your best Justice
And after the resurrection and judgment day, you said You will offer the wicked the HELL as the punishment!
The three times punishment for a wicked person whose wickedness sense cause of Your powerful wish! Why are these excess punishments?
Causes of You are mighty, omni-powerful!?

Oh; I'm not disappointed with what You have done or doing
But behold; I do not fear You because of all the obscure rules and regulations in holy books
Behold; Satan is appointed by You to deviate the entire creations
So, answer me, Would Satan be divine if he could do perfectly what he was appointed to do?
Behold; Angels are appointed by You to distribute Your mercy to the entire creations
So, answer me, would Angels be hellish if they could do perfectly what they were appointed to do?
You are only One; Satan is one also but Angels, Prophets, and Saints are many
But, why? Why are these numbers different?
Is Satan comparable to You? If Satan is created by You then why punish us for him?
If Satan is created by You then Why should he be punished by You?
I have no fear; I do not fear You because of these dialectical principles.

Behold; nothing in the world of creation happens without your permission
If that is true then You have no right to punish all of the created world
I do not fear You but fear all of the created world; because-
The creator who was born with the conflicted principles of creation is not You
The God who was born in the disputed beliefs of creation can never be You


© Mahtab Bangalee
Chattogram
2022/10/20