Additionally, I am ending the relationship with you , I do not think it would work out between us,I don’t think it ever did. we have different views of how people inlove should act, and trying to “force” you to be how I imagine isn’t doing us any good.

I want to be in a relationship with a man that desires me as much I do him and I get that you give off emotions and affections sparingly but it is not what I want, and every time, I feel I’m begging for crumps, for the barest minimum in a relationship I bring so much to the table to be begging for simple things that I give liberally.

I get so infuriated because I have never invested in a relationship the way I have with you yet I get the least effort, I get the least “reward”, I get the very least of everything and it annoys me so much.

You do not call me, you do not text me, you don’t support me in ways a boyfriend would, you don’t make an attempt to help me in any way, you don’t even try to know how I’m fairing, what I’m going through, what I need, you don’t make any attempt to share in my stress, to be closer to me than anyone else, but when it comes to you I try my best to show you, any little way I can that I will always support you, and be there for you.

You are so self absorbed that if I do not ask to see you, you won’t make any attempt to see me. You don’t make any plans for us, and when I do, you scrap it without any backup plan, and when you talk of your goals and dreams it is only about you; what YOU want to get, things YOU want to do with little or no plurals at all.

I can say that I have given to you litterally every benefit of being in a relationship but what do I get? Do I feel watered? No.

I am tired of fighting back and forth and returning to the same status quo of lack of reciprocacy and nonchalance. So, instead of responding with rage I will leave things as they are. As of today, I have deleted your photos and would delete your number off my phone and I will unfollow your socials and delete the Facebook I downloaded because of you, so I can see the Facebook reels you share to me. I have, in 3 months changed my entire life to accommodate you, but I don’t feel appreciated.

If nothing has changed in 3months, if there are no signs of change or the relationship getting better what is the hope that it would ever? I need a partner, a lover, a bestfriend, a companion and someone I can rely on but it’s clear you are not cut out for those so, I guess it is time I wake up and smell the coffee and stop dwelling on the idea of you, the idea of the man I think you could be and just see you for who you really are. And even when I gush over how much I love you, sometimes you would ask “ah ah what did I do?” It is telling that even to you, you haven’t quite done enough to be rewarded with such love and devotion.

I only ask one thing, that whatever happened between us should stay between us. I say this because we have one or two mutual friends and as you already know, I do not like anyone in my business.

Finally, in all these I have learnt one thing, there really isn’t anything out there worth longing for and just like before you came into my life, I would return to my solitude but this time with desires that have been quietened, delusions of love that has collided with “reality” That I have seen all, I have done all and it all amounts to nothing in the end.

Knowing you was an experience and I am not, in any way trying to be cocky by assuming you would want us back but if you do ever, maybe in future, I hope you return with love, affection, desire, provision and security.

But then again, I think I have pushed myself to a point where I now think relationships are pointless and definitely overhyped but that’s okay, we live, we learn.

And when you meet your next girlfriend, do not tell her your “ex” was insecure and overbearing, tell her, in sincerity what you did not do, affections you did not show, the calls you did not make… tell her how much your ex loved you and place it side by side with how you demonstrated your love. Tell her the things she did how she showed her love, and then tell her, honestly, the things you did in return.

I wish you all the best.