In the quiet corners of my mind,
Your laughter lingers, a ghost entwined.
Once a fire, now just a spark,
Your absence haunts in the dark.
With every laugh and every tear,
Memories linger, sweet but clear.
I reach for you, but find the air,
A hollow space, an empty chair.
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An island sunset, when mango moon is calling,
Lush palm fronds sway, when the day is stalling.
Ivory tailed comet, comes but once in a lifetime,
Sitting in tropical sunset, at just the right time.
Gemmed hummingbird sparkle. Destiny dreams.
Pink sun is roving. Glossy crows' feathers gleam.
What was left behind, is often recalled to mind;
Yet, plum fate isn't unkind, as love again you find.
You were the breeze in my hair, the familiarity of the sun on my feathered shoulder blades, you were the laughter I heard in my dreams, the love my heart beat for. You were mutual understanding, jokes shared over laughter. You were not the kindest, you were definitely not the most stable, but I loved you anyways. We were best friends--I never told you. Not until it was too late.
You saw through the smoke and mirrors he tried to hide behind, but still gave him your heart and soul. He was there until you needed him, and then suddenly a ghost constructed of smoke took his place. I was there whenever I could be, whenever you broke down, for every thought of giving up. I was one of the ones who urged you to live, to give him up, but you couldn’t. His love was a drug and you were only too happy to be addicted. All I wanted was your happiness and he stole it away when he stole your heart.
When he stole your life is when I snapped.
The breeze became a biting chill, the sun a burning fire that settled in my chest. The laughter became cries and blames, and my heart became as shattered as I am.
My tongue became the bite, my words burning him in an inferno of fury. Your cries spurred on my screams, your blame became my proof, my shattered heart became glass daggers. My fury and abhorrence became my choice weapons in my goal for vengeance.
I will remember the breeze in my hair while I fall from the sky, the familiarity of the sun on my blood-soaked wings, your laughter lighting up the nights I wake frozen from night terrors, the love I feel the warmth in an otherwise cold house.
There is beauty in everything, even this angel with flightless wings and a dim halo. I can still remember the light in your eyes, the smile I saw through but didn’t know how to help, the last peaceful words that fell from your lips before you were gone. I will always remember the jokes we shared, the playful banter between us, the support we gave each other.
I will remember, I will cry, but I will rejoice because you taught me so much more than I could’ve asked.
You will never feel ready, but don’t wait too long, or the love you once held will slip from your fingers like stardust returning to the heavens.
You began as stardust, and to the sky you returned as such.
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I woke up before the dawn to welcome the day
After a night ofr snow and howling wind
As the fear quaked inside me underneath the comforter
I rose to see nothing but the stars still twinkling
And when the sunrise, the anxiety slipped away
The cold touched my face and slapped me once more from sleep
And I needed another coffee to open my eyes
But I started to think about you
Though, I knew it would be over in a year's time
I loved you for real
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She came from nowhere, as though she were a ghost. Her aura was as bright as her eyes, as warm as her smile. Her laugh so free as if she was a fall colored leaf. ("Though she wasn't as fragile.") Her voice was nothing I'd heard before. Oh, how I longed to listen to her sing. Her soul so pure it felt as though we'd joined as one.
It felt like home. It felt like forever.
Every moment spent by her side became a dream come true. A wish granted. A blessing if you will, but just like that in the blink of an eye she was gone, as if it'd all been just a dream. Though the pain, so real, so unbearable. The heart shattered as if it had been made of glass, shards flying every which way. Unable to be pieced together again. Though the heart may have shattered, love still runs deep. Giving up hope seemed unreachable and unforgivable. And just like that, as quickly as she came, she were gone even quicker. She's gone for good. Now I have to sit back and pretend like I'm ok, when I'm not. I have to pretend that I'm not falling apart every single day living without my bestfriend. I'm not ok with losing her. I'm not okay missing her. So how do I begin to heal? How do I pick up the pieces of a shattered heart?
In the quiet corners of my mind,
Your laughter lingers, a ghost entwined.
Once a fire, now just a spark,
Your absence haunts in the dark.
With every laugh and every tear,
Memories linger, sweet but clear.
I reach for you, but find the air,
A hollow space, an empty chair.
......
An island sunset, when mango moon is calling,
Lush palm fronds sway, when the day is stalling.
Ivory tailed comet, comes but once in a lifetime,
Sitting in tropical sunset, at just the right time.
Gemmed hummingbird sparkle. Destiny dreams.
Pink sun is roving. Glossy crows' feathers gleam.
What was left behind, is often recalled to mind;
Yet, plum fate isn't unkind, as love again you find.
Additionally, I am ending the relationship with you , I do not think it would work out between us,I don’t think it ever did. we have different views of how people inlove should act, and trying to “force” you to be how I imagine isn’t doing us any good.
I want to be in a relationship with a man that desires me as much I do him and I get that you give off emotions and affections sparingly but it is not what I want, and every time, I feel I’m begging for crumps, for the barest minimum in a relationship I bring so much to the table to be begging for simple things that I give liberally.
I get so infuriated because I have never invested in a relationship the way I have with you yet I get the least effort, I get the least “reward”, I get the very least of everything and it annoys me so much.
You do not call me, you do not text me, you don’t support me in ways a boyfriend would, you don’t make an attempt to help me in any way, you don’t even try to know how I’m fairing, what I’m going through, what I need, you don’t make any attempt to share in my stress, to be closer to me than anyone else, but when it comes to you I try my best to show you, any little way I can that I will always support you, and be there for you.
You are so self absorbed that if I do not ask to see you, you won’t make any attempt to see me. You don’t make any plans for us, and when I do, you scrap it without any backup plan, and when you talk of your goals and dreams it is only about you; what YOU want to get, things YOU want to do with little or no plurals at all.
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i wanted to write about you
lovely cherry
you didn't ask to be born too
but you are glad you do
i wanted to write about you
cuz you are not like anyone i knew
you didn't say anything you want to be
you just ARE everything you want to be
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I await by the window, yearning.
Like the shore awaits for her wavelets.
Like the nest allures the bird to come back,
Like the flower impatiently expects Spring.
But you're far away...
Amongst the infinite horizons, I sketch your image.
And my longing I send to thee, with the wind.
She's my Hermes, the courier..
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