It's been too long
We stopped talking
About two years I guess

And just recently
You started it again
How can I ignore you
When all it took

is your voice to let my heart
beat again for you.

Moving on seems easy
If I'm not talking to you
or seeing you
it let me move on temporarily

What sucks the most?
is, this summer
You held my hand
You're so near

I can almost feel like
You and I have the same feeling again

And before I can feel deeper emotions
I warned myself
Restrained
All the questions
I had when you left
On why did you stole my first kiss
And pretend it didn't happen
On how you hug me so tight
And even interlock your fingers with mine

When we all ever had
Was the warm bodies of each other
Why wipe my tears when I cried and broke?
Why let me feel loved and special?

I want to know

But best if I keep it all to myself
I mean it.

After all this time
I keep pushing people away

Cause maybe deep inside
I'm still hoping
Waiting
That the day will come

You will take my hand

And that time
I pray
You won't let go.

You were always the risk
I know I would take

The mistake
I would always commit

The sin
I'm going to take responsibility for.

See how much I became vulnerable
I understand if you can't
You wouldn't
Even if you should
Probably you shouldn't
Love someone like me.
I hate myself too.

-Levianel