The person who hurt me
is back.
That person asked me,

"Hey, it's been a while how are you?
You know what? I missed you sooooo much."

That person said that with a pure smile
with a touch of darkness and chaos.
It all came back to me
I thought I had forgotten

How I let myself be messed up
How I let myself gave chances
How I let myself took risks

That's when it all started to be exciting
and scary

You sneak into my room at night
Giving me your personal thoughts
You let yourself be naked with words
And then you'll eventually vanish
Like a seafoam

Your voice is slowly fading
As it took away the memories we shared together

Just like that, you left me.

You left me hanging.

I never knew the reason why.
Maybe you never really meant everything
That I'm a nobody to you
I'm aware of that

In fact, people even told me I'm weird
But even so, you're the first person
Who said that I was different
But in a beautiful way.

There are so many things I wanted to tell you
So many things I wanted to do with you
You gave me a reason to love
and hate myself.

Enough so that I forgot to look myself in the mirror
And ask myself, do I even know who I am anymore?

You let me felt how it is to be free
at the same time, to feel locked up.

I was caged and still stuck
on the place where you and I started
and ended.

Ironically, you're just there
in front of me looking so the same as ever
Like you never change at all.

I'm just grateful
that you can still and even recognize me

after all who I become.

So my answer to how am I?

Rest assured,
I'm not hurting any longer.

-Levianel