This is too much
Too much happiness for one day
Do I really deserve it?
I'm terrified that having too much will also cause too much
Too much grief
Sadness
And sorrow

Overthinking habit sucks big time

Every little thing matters
Then I'll start doubting myself
Eventually, I'll find myself crying

Too many reasons to smile
And too many reasons to agonize

Ridiculous isn't it?

Really? Can someone just tell me
when can I stop smiling and start crying?
Because like I said

Every little thing, matters.

And even if I wanted to risk again
I'm so messed up from overthinking.
Sleepless nights gave me more anxiety
Coffee started to make me feel nervous all the time

When all it does to me in the past was to calm my nerves down

yeah, too much will cause too much.
I'm so done.

I just hope that I can keep going

And be strong enough to keep positive thoughts.
Because of any minute now,

I may not be able to pick up the broken pieces of myself.

-Levianel