Thank you for saving me."
But I'm sorry, I don't.. I can't love you"

These were the words that stabbed my heart

I thought everything is going well for us
I've been trying to lie to myself
All this time, I'm fighting for us
But little do I know

Someone already won

Every morning and every night
I held back my tears
Forcing to smile for you
I want to brighten up your day
I didn't know
That I'm dying inside

I eat
I sleep
I took a shower
I go to your direction
Always.
Only to find out

You found someone else

Efforts were in vain
Flowers started to fall
Weather changed,

You changed

Warm nights to cold night
Smell of your perfume to smell of my tear

Pulled you up from darkness
Held your hand from chaos
Wiped your tears
Protected your heart
Chased you
Cuddled with you
Kissed you
Hugged you
I loved you

I still love you.

And now, what are we?

Can we be just friends?" you said

"I just want you to let me love you. You don't need to do anything."

You looked at me with those emphatic eyes
You embraced me so tight
Whispered to my ears

"I thought I can save you from me."

And then you closed the door
Not only of my room
But in your heart as well

I stood there
Listening to my tear drop
I held back my screams
Gather my shits
Until I realized

You still have a piece of my heart.

Both of us knew
You're not going to get back to return it
Because the owner have given up

And just started to built her walls around her 99 pieces.
99 pieces of your name written on it
99 pieces of your memories

Is it? 99?

I guess, I lost count.

-Levianel.