Would you be willing to thank the rain?
If I will be the one closest to pain?
Should you be thinking about her warmth
When the blood is pouring out of your heart?

Silence is a loophole in my head
It's making me think not to feel regret
Your laughter and pranks
Being childish and being a jerk at times
I admit it is remarkable in its own way
Almost like a scripted play

Just looking at you sit there
Staring at her
Makes me want you more
If only I'm not an outsider
Things could have been better

That old apartment is too far
The place where we can meet for an hour
This time you're not gonna show up
I'm not chosen, I'm not on top

My phone rings for you each night
Before, your voice embraces my chest so tight
I wonder, why tonight
For you, my heart doesn't beat right

I rejected the facts
There were so many lies
How could I forget those eyes
Even those awkward smiles

I can't go on feeling this
Took so many risks

Walking alone now might be easy
No more temporary company
Nothing to worry
I just need some time to heal
And soon, I'll be able to believe and feel.

-Levianel