Sometimes I feel like I'm sinking.
Like I'm being pulled down by an invisible force
Unable to bring myself back up.
I feel like I'm slowly being dragged under a quicksand that is impossible to escape.

I've been sinking for most of my life.
I've found comfort the sand.

After a while the sand drowns my feelings.
My legs go numb and I no longer feel the pain.
Sitting in the sand let's me forget about my problems.

I know it's not healthy
I shouldn't find comfort stuck in quicksand
I shouldn't want to be pulled under completely,
But I can't help wondering if it feels better to be submerged.
If maybe
Just maybe
The darkness underneath the familiar sand
Would be more bearable than the darkness in the unfamiliar world.