Sometimes I can't sleep
Dreading an awful dream
He took everything from me
So it seems
The days of terrible flashbacks
 if only I could get my life back
To avoid a 4-year panick attack
How is this still a fact??
He's been put behind bars
But the matter is I didn't get very far
To this so called healing of trauma
Even I can't go to my mama
Sometimes I think its Karma
But how could that even be?
I just wanted to make sure his heart would beat
Just so he could take advantage of me
Sexually
Eventually
I'll get out of my head
And one day hope I can actually sleep in my bed
But all I can think of is his voice instead
Telling me "we're married in God's eyes"
You see everything was a lie
I can't even believe
That this is all I can see
One day I'll get my life back
And grow from the past
I don't have an option
Because there is no potion
To get me through tomorrow
My heart filled with sorrows
"I'll be okay"