Would you believe me if i said two mice led me to my soulmate?

Two girls in a small cabin at summer camp
Two mice wrecking havoc in the late hours of the night
It's a fairy tale in itself the way we fell in love

She says shes happy she was my first
My first love
My first kiss
My first everything
She wouldn’t have trusted anyone else with me she says

But she doesn’t hear my thoughts
Or feel the knife in my heart as she says these five words.
She doesn’t hear the thoughts in my head
The ones that want to scream that she was the first to break my heart
The first to make the pictures I had painted of kids
And a white picket fence tear to shreds
The ones where I question if I want to have another love

She doesn’t feel the way my heart misses a beat when she says;
“if i would go back to any of my lesbian relationships it would be ours”
The way my brain takes that and twists it
Giving me hope
If only for a moment that we could be something again
That I could feel the type of love we had once more

Shes with a man now
And it makes me wonder
Were we ever actually more than friends?
But the way she’d make love to me in our bed
That wasn’t platonic
The way she would hold me as my body shook with fear
And whisper sweet nothings in my ear as we waited on a cold december day for our train
Those damn mice that started our relationship
I wonder what they would think now if they could see us
Her with a man,
a ring on her finger,
And a white picket fence around their house
Soon to be kids on the way.
I wonder if those mice knew that this is how it would end,
Me in a lonely one bedroom apartment
Coming home to two cats
No other humans to be seen

When I think about love
I think about our love
and what should have been
Our white picket fence
Two kids and a dog

Those mice sure would be surprised if they could see us now.