I got to be honest to my Father
And when I pray to my father
I have to ask my father
To give me health and peace
Because I have poor health
And also I am not looking after my health
I am letting my health going down hill
I Know I am not allowed to have sugar in my diet
Put I have constant craving for sugar
It is hard for me to live without sugar
I must confess
Also I have no peace in my life
I want peace badly
Yes I am always bringing up the past
You hate every time I mention the past to you father
I had failed so many times in my past
Nothing good had come out of my past
I had lots of bad moments in my past
I should not bring my past up
But I do
Father I don't know what is wrong with me
Maybe I am not being grateful for being alive
Every single day
Because you are the one that keeps me alive
Every single day
I Know that life is precious
And I am not allowed to take my own life
That would be the worst thing I could do
Also write a suicidal letter
Explaining to people
Why I took my life
I would be hard for my friends to digest
Father I don't know nothing about my future life
Yes father I am ready to live my future life
And hope not to make the same mistakes
I did in my past life