i scream in the night
but nobody comes

i see them in my dreams
the ones i have lost

the memories grow old
day by day

when i reach for them
they just slip away

i want to cry
but theres no tears left in me

all i want
is you here with me

i have one left
i guess im okay

but he left
their all slipping away

i wish he were here the most
he was there for me when i needed a father

when she kept him away from me
and he didnt bother

i need him the most
tears rush to my eyes

all i can do
is sit here and cry

i cry out his name
i see him in my dreams

i want him to come back
and stay here with me

i wonder if there was any thing i could do
to prolong his stay

i doubt it
he had problems for days

i was the baby
he protected me

he held me tight
when i cried through the night

i want her here too
dont get me wrong

but i only had her with me
for about three years long

my sister would want her more
though she doesnt show it

shes got other things on her mind
like work and the kids

dont tell her this
but deep inside i want to be like her

well not the dropping out
or having kids early

but having freinds
and a mom to wach them

because i dont know if my mom will be there
when i have kids of my own

her mom was there
up untill i was six

then i saw the looks on their faces
and i cried for her to come back

but of corse she didnt
none of them did

so i learned not to get too attached
to anyone around me

because i know it will be easier to let go
when their time comes

my mom says shes sick
i hope its not the same

if it is i will have to tough it up
and deal with where i get put

i hope i dont get it
or my sister too

she was in her sixtys when it took her
i wish it didnt

but him
his organs just

Quit

shut themselfs up for good
i wish they didnt

but now hes not in pain
no more coughing through the night

no more breathing machine
loud and noisy

filling in the quiet
and the dark

i just want them back
right here next to me

but i know that wont happen
untill i go join them

i hope it wont be soon
but i just wish

sometimes

all the time

that he was here with me