I drag myself upstairs
The night time is near
I find myself on the shower floor
Screaming out for all to hear

I can finally let the tears fall
The pain of the day wash away
Before long I find the blade
And finally I feel okay

I let the blade skate my wrists
The red river starts to flood
A blank canvas I paint
My only color is blood

So I continue to cut
Each line a little deeper
The pain slowly fades away
My heartbeat goes weaker

You may think I’m crazy
And I’ve been told before
That no one will ever love me
And surely I’m sinful whore

These lines of insecurities
They line my arms and scattered my thighs
They wrap overweight exhausted shoulders
They scream my unspoken cries

The blade is my only friend,
My only reason to see the sunrise
You see this blade it keeps me alive
Saves me from all the goodbyes