why does it feel as if i've nothing more to live for? at a point im happy but moments later my mind wanders... i know i should be over the moon. i've at least accomplished a few things though it fades from my mind. why do i feel as if i shouldnt be alive? a minute from now a tear will fall down my cheek... what on earth is it that's got me so weak? i can express how i feel through words but i won't ease to speak it. i wonder if i truly know myself for i sometimes doubt the emotions... i try to shut them out yet im part of it all. i can't help but feel that im not alive anymore!