in the dismantled house
stripped forever of your breath
I hear your voice one last time
in the herebefore:

"Remco, what are you doing in my house?"

Since I was born
that question's never left my side -
what was I doing in my mother's house?

Roaming around your death
I see the sunny travel brochure
still lying in your emptied room
and the boat gliding
through a veil of mist
that we once sailed in together
over the long deep waters of Lake Garda
to see for instance
if in the curiosity cabinet of D'Annunzio's house
Eleonora Duse had her niche
or whether in some lives
actresses were not doomed for ever
to play the secondary roles
while before the footlights
the man parades
his prompted sorrow
to the applauding claque

but all that's for later
first there's the journey
to find something I don't yet know
with the joyful shouts of children in the schoolyard
always on my mind

seek what you love best
the thing that moves you