Last week you got in a big fight with your best friend.
The two of you swore never to see each other again.
I can tell that you're sad because you'll no longer see each other.
When it comes to friends, you are out there trying to find another.
You can't end this friendship just because of a fight.
You should go find him and try to make things right.
You've been friends for nearly twenty years, you can't just throw that away.
You should salvage your friendship, go to him and patch things up today.