my one embarrassment; i hate you.
i hate the way even the thought of you made my heart stutter,
the way you made me think life is better as two.
how the thought of that made me misstep, blushing at my blunder.
i hate you wholeheartedly,
even though it hurts a bit to say,
regardless if it was because of something said belatedly,
and that i was the one who had to pay.
......
He comes around the wall
And I feel my quickened heart.
I dare to look even while
Seconds become a moment.
He passes with dull eyes
And a whiff of musky skin.
I wish I could pass by
As unaffected as him.
Oh, cut me loose from these chains of love,
My mind is numb and my heart is broken,
To you I am a stranger, to me you are the only love of my life,
The girl of my dream in my dreams,
You have become my daily routine, my dose,
I'll let my mind be consumed by what it desires the most,
Have I ever crossed your mind?
Oh, cut me loose from these chains of love.
As I blow the candle out,
the clock screams 4:25 at me.
I watched as the ember shot out of the votive glass
onto the painted wooden shelf…
I didn’t mind as I continued to watch the ember burn.
I sort of hoped it would eventually stop,
but if it didn’t?
I wouldn’t mind.
It reminded me of you,
......
my one embarrassment; i hate you.
i hate the way even the thought of you made my heart stutter,
the way you made me think life is better as two.
how the thought of that made me misstep, blushing at my blunder.
i hate you wholeheartedly,
even though it hurts a bit to say,
regardless if it was because of something said belatedly,
and that i was the one who had to pay.
......
Oh, cut me loose from these chains of love,
My mind is numb and my heart is broken,
To you I am a stranger, to me you are the only love of my life,
The girl of my dream in my dreams,
You have become my daily routine, my dose,
I'll let my mind be consumed by what it desires the most,
Have I ever crossed your mind?
Oh, cut me loose from these chains of love.
He comes around the wall
And I feel my quickened heart.
I dare to look even while
Seconds become a moment.
He passes with dull eyes
And a whiff of musky skin.
I wish I could pass by
As unaffected as him.
As I blow the candle out,
the clock screams 4:25 at me.
I watched as the ember shot out of the votive glass
onto the painted wooden shelf…
I didn’t mind as I continued to watch the ember burn.
I sort of hoped it would eventually stop,
but if it didn’t?
I wouldn’t mind.
It reminded me of you,
......