I trace the cracks within myself,
yet find none upon you—
Your skin, a barren canvas,
untouched by time or flaw,
While mine, a weathered map,
etched by stares that linger too long.
You label yourself two-faced,
but I only set eyes on one
side of the wall.
......
All you told were lies,
And I hid behind the wall I built while you were telling me how good I made you feel.
All I did was try and please your appetite,
But your ego was droughty and left me for dead with only evaporites.
All we were was just a summertime's fun,
Because we bought into the scam of 'you only live once'.
Of all the cultures there are to experience and all the lessons we have to learn,
......
Love for you stings, sharp and unwanted—
not by your actions,
but the quiet, aching knowing
you’ll never be mine to hold.
Your absence echoes through the silence,
but when you return,
time holds its breath.
I replay our moments—
a broken record,
......
The other day
I was okay with living,
I enjoyed the idea of it.
Then something hit me,
I took it all back.
I didn't want to deal with this for years,
I didn't want to live anymore.
I enjoyed the idea of death more than I did life.
......
Love for you stings, sharp and unwanted—
not by your actions,
but the quiet, aching knowing
you’ll never be mine to hold.
Your absence echoes through the silence,
but when you return,
time holds its breath.
I replay our moments—
a broken record,
......
I trace the cracks within myself,
yet find none upon you—
Your skin, a barren canvas,
untouched by time or flaw,
While mine, a weathered map,
etched by stares that linger too long.
You label yourself two-faced,
but I only set eyes on one
side of the wall.
......
All you told were lies,
And I hid behind the wall I built while you were telling me how good I made you feel.
All I did was try and please your appetite,
But your ego was droughty and left me for dead with only evaporites.
All we were was just a summertime's fun,
Because we bought into the scam of 'you only live once'.
Of all the cultures there are to experience and all the lessons we have to learn,
......
The other day
I was okay with living,
I enjoyed the idea of it.
Then something hit me,
I took it all back.
I didn't want to deal with this for years,
I didn't want to live anymore.
I enjoyed the idea of death more than I did life.
......