Every morning, I leave no trace,
And you'd never see past the smile on my face.
You might have asked, and I might have lied,
Truthfully, these are the marks of an angel longing her return to the sky.
Every evening, I argue with the mirror,
Wondering if I should shower right after dinner.
The glass of water in my room becomes all too tempting,
And now I'm caught in a vicious cycle, addicted to feeling empty.
......
I tell jokes, but I tell them slant.
Laughter sheds light on the darkness of my candor.
Amusement frees the weight off of my afflictions.
Smiles accompany the loneliness of my sincerity.
I tell the truth, but I tell it slant.
Friday 5 July 2024
Exactly 100 days before you decide to leave me,
I'm not complaining, I'm happy that you choose to set yourself free.
A new chapter without me, a new beginning in your life,
But the sharp pain in my heart cuts like a knife.
I remember the times when I'd get lost in your eyes,
And the feeling of being by your side, my heart flies.
Even from a distance, I could feel your emotions so deep,
As if they were mine too, a connection we keep.
......
My heart, breaks each day
No one knows, they don't have to know
But it breaks each time I think about it
Some days I feel like a failure
Though I always make myself seem like a champion
Some days I feel like the ugliest girl
Though I would always self praise when I'm around others
I would overwork and stress myself out
Fall sick, health deteriorating
......
They built me with their sweats
And enslaved blood
As a high mark of their might
Wearing the chest of Calcuttan culture.
Since then I have been standing strong
On my plastered feet
Like the two mammoth poles bound together
Yet as different as East and West.
Bridging the gulf between the people,
......
Every morning, I leave no trace,
And you'd never see past the smile on my face.
You might have asked, and I might have lied,
Truthfully, these are the marks of an angel longing her return to the sky.
Every evening, I argue with the mirror,
Wondering if I should shower right after dinner.
The glass of water in my room becomes all too tempting,
And now I'm caught in a vicious cycle, addicted to feeling empty.
......
I tell jokes, but I tell them slant.
Laughter sheds light on the darkness of my candor.
Amusement frees the weight off of my afflictions.
Smiles accompany the loneliness of my sincerity.
I tell the truth, but I tell it slant.
Friday 5 July 2024
Exactly 100 days before you decide to leave me,
I'm not complaining, I'm happy that you choose to set yourself free.
A new chapter without me, a new beginning in your life,
But the sharp pain in my heart cuts like a knife.
I remember the times when I'd get lost in your eyes,
And the feeling of being by your side, my heart flies.
Even from a distance, I could feel your emotions so deep,
As if they were mine too, a connection we keep.
......
I said I would only write when I'm hurt,
And here I am writing again,
But this time the pain runs deep,
And I can't pretend.
I hate to feel this way,
To be so lost and alone,
I always thought I had it all together,
But now I realize I've never truly shone.
......
My heart, breaks each day
No one knows, they don't have to know
But it breaks each time I think about it
Some days I feel like a failure
Though I always make myself seem like a champion
Some days I feel like the ugliest girl
Though I would always self praise when I'm around others
I would overwork and stress myself out
Fall sick, health deteriorating
......