I said I would only write when I'm hurt,
And here I am writing again,
But this time the pain runs deep,
And I can't pretend.
I hate to feel this way,
To be so lost and alone,
I always thought I had it all together,
But now I realize I've never truly shone.
......
Exactly 100 days before you decide to leave me,
I'm not complaining, I'm happy that you choose to set yourself free.
A new chapter without me, a new beginning in your life,
But the sharp pain in my heart cuts like a knife.
I remember the times when I'd get lost in your eyes,
And the feeling of being by your side, my heart flies.
Even from a distance, I could feel your emotions so deep,
As if they were mine too, a connection we keep.
......
My heart, breaks each day
No one knows, they don't have to know
But it breaks each time I think about it
Some days I feel like a failure
Though I always make myself seem like a champion
Some days I feel like the ugliest girl
Though I would always self praise when I'm around others
I would overwork and stress myself out
Fall sick, health deteriorating
......
Happy moments bloom
ever in full beauty,
like a delicate flower
wafting sweet fragrance
of pleasing felicity,
of cherished longings.
Some time later
they grow red and pale,
all fade and wither
as the leaves, dried
......
All steps grow thorns and thistles
Boulders lie hidden from the walking eyes;
Some throw them out with ease
While some fall down and writhe with cries.
Life is a testing trial by fire
Everybody must stride out of fear and tear;
Some see black in blues and reds
While some go green and grin far and near.
......
Exactly 100 days before you decide to leave me,
I'm not complaining, I'm happy that you choose to set yourself free.
A new chapter without me, a new beginning in your life,
But the sharp pain in my heart cuts like a knife.
I remember the times when I'd get lost in your eyes,
And the feeling of being by your side, my heart flies.
Even from a distance, I could feel your emotions so deep,
As if they were mine too, a connection we keep.
......
I said I would only write when I'm hurt,
And here I am writing again,
But this time the pain runs deep,
And I can't pretend.
I hate to feel this way,
To be so lost and alone,
I always thought I had it all together,
But now I realize I've never truly shone.
......
My heart, breaks each day
No one knows, they don't have to know
But it breaks each time I think about it
Some days I feel like a failure
Though I always make myself seem like a champion
Some days I feel like the ugliest girl
Though I would always self praise when I'm around others
I would overwork and stress myself out
Fall sick, health deteriorating
......
In shadows deep, where silence lies,
A soul concealed, with hidden cries.
I stand before the world, a facade so strong,
While inside I crumble, feeling so wrong.
Like porcelain fragile, I start to crack,
Yet I keep pretending, never looking back.
A scream echoes within, a desperate plea,
But the abyss swallows, consuming me.
......
Around and around goes the carousel,
Its grim melody pries into your bones,
Oh, to this merry carnival, the fallen angels welcome you well,
Take a seat, have a drink, make yourself at home.
Around and around goes the carousel,
The figures who ride it find themselves lacking a face,
But isn't it so lovely, its echoing call?
So come take a seat, come find your place.
......