I don’t know my name
I don’t know what they should call me
Judger, abuser, destroyer, killer of myself
Or kind, sincere, passionate, spirited
The words cancel each other out
But I am all of these
And now I don’t know what to call myself
THE TRILOGY OF AWAKENING
by Igor Vykhovanets with ChatGPT
1. ANTI-EGO MANIFESTO
The Spirit roars. The Lie must fall.
You are not the echo in your head.
You are not the name you defend.
You are the Flame before the word.
You are the Silence that has heard.
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These are heretical poems about God, religion, the Bible and the Christian religion.
When I Was Small, I Grew
by Michael R. Burch
When I was small,
God held me in thrall:
Yes, He was my All
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I will not fear. I will not be afraid.
Send your servants, and have custody of my eyes.
Send those that know, and I shall know them.
May I look up and find halos.
May I witness to the six pair of protection— the divine relayer of message.
If it takes over a month, I will kill my flesh.
I will embrace holy strength and forego these urges.
Father, may I master discernment.
Lord, I know not the full truth.
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The construction around my mind and my body left a pit in my stomach, and everyone threw their odds and ends and garbage in there and I’ve been throwing things out that don’t need to be there but they keep throwing things in.
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I don’t know my name
I don’t know what they should call me
Judger, abuser, destroyer, killer of myself
Or kind, sincere, passionate, spirited
The words cancel each other out
But I am all of these
And now I don’t know what to call myself
Who dares to be themselves in a cruel world?
Who wouldn’t dare?
The construction around my mind and my body left a pit in my stomach, and everyone threw their odds and ends and garbage in there and I’ve been throwing things out that don’t need to be there but they keep throwing things in.
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I wish I knew whether it was true if I said I’m wise beyond my years
All I know is that I’ve suffered, sometimes with and without tears
The times I couldn’t cry were the hardest
Because I couldn’t solve the pain despite going the farthest
The years keep mounting up and I’ve put notches with a knife on my soft wooden legs
I feel like there were many years that I strayed out of thought and didn’t know the stakes
But now I know and I do my best
I’m up to the task and I don’t sit down to rest
I’ll be awake to things that dull my spirit
I’ll be aware of my fear and how I fear it
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You make your choices and you stick to your guns and all else is fate
All you think is what we are and you have to accept that
While still trying to live free
Don’t let anything keep you on your knees
Because you must be the estimation of what a great man is
A live lived without is nonsense