For the longest time, I thought I knew what it was
like the spring after a chilly winter
brushing snowflakes from your jacket and wishing for those daisies to bloom
maybe it was the platonic turn of poles
and the fate busted as the mighty, scorching, ruthless ball of fire
destroyed the spirit of little daisies
you were no less than that blistering weather
leaving me demented
you walked away
after a bizarre show of vulnerabilities
......
What do I want ?
What do I want ?
Did I ever think about it ?
Have I ever asked myself ?
Have I ever heard the voice of my heart ?
Have I ever asked myself
Where does my happiness lie ?
No I never thought about it
No I never asked myself .
Was just living my life
......
One last day in this neighborhood.
Leaving behind years of memories both bad and good.
I’m so tired of being misunderstood.
I wouldn’t stay here if I could.
I’m halfway to Heaven.
I’ve already been through hell.
Yeah, I’m halfway to Heaven. I don’t even know myself.
Seems like everybody wants to control me.
Telling me how my life is supposed to be.
I’m tired of living in captivity.
......
La fleur est rouge,
La fleur est bleue,
Et l’autre fleur est jaune…
Mais, qu’en est-il de la fleur qui a ne pas une couleur?
Est-ce qu’il est ne pas beau?
Ou ne pas bien pour les yeux?
TANT PIS.
Je m’en fiche,
......
I lived by myself
So, I healed up myself
Started understanding myself
Rather than doubting myself
I stood up for myself,
I fought with myself
Until I got dependent on myself.
Yes, it sounds selfish,
But trust me
Sometimes, it's okay
......
Walking down the giant road
Lights ever bright, beings unknown
I'm the alien, displaced and lone
In this strange realm I can't call home
Adrift in a sea where I'll never belong
Peering at fractured reflections, feeling so wrong
But then a few souls, with welcoming grace
Reached out to this alien, fashioned a place
......
Walking into the garden
with my third eye open
Destined for all the dirt
that will seep in
between my toes
To watch every sunrise
and every sunset
surrounded by vivacious greenery
......
How lucky I am to have experienced such pure, genuine love,
Which showed me what true love should look and feel like.
I might not currently receive that love,
But one day, I will find someone who can give me that love eternally.
I love intensely,
I used to think that was a flaw, but I now see it as my best trait.
Because I finally love myself,
And though I am saddened by losing my other half,
I am learning how to be whole alone.
......
Do I love myself?
What does it mean to love?
Is this a yes or no question?
I looked at my body with glory,
Maybe tomorrow but
Just now and not a week ago.
I find things funny,
My body was the first thing that came to mind.
What if my love was swapped from the pedestal?
......
No mirror can hold the ugliness of my face,
It breaks into pieces when I look at it.
All I can do is cry,
Hoping that Im blind so I dont have to worry
about how I look,
and I cant see people judging me
I hope I can gouge out their eyes.