I try too hard
I look too deep
I glance too far
I climb too steep
I groan in pain
I missed the leap
I watch the rain
I watch and weep
An eternal dream
I laugh in sleep
......
One last day in this neighborhood.
Leaving behind years of memories both bad and good.
I’m so tired of being misunderstood.
I wouldn’t stay here if I could.
I’m halfway to Heaven.
I’ve already been through hell.
Yeah, I’m halfway to Heaven. I don’t even know myself.
Seems like everybody wants to control me.
Telling me how my life is supposed to be.
I’m tired of living in captivity.
......
मैं क्या चाहती हूँ?
मैं क्या चाहती हूँ?
क्या कभी मैंने सोचा ?
क्या कभी खुदसे पूछा?
क्या कभी अपने दिल की आवाज़ सुनी?
क्या यह खुदसे पूछा कि तेरी खुशी क़िस्में है?
नहीं कभी नहीं सोचा
नहीं कभी नहीं पूछा ।
बस यूँ ही ज़िंदगी जी रही थी
दूसरों के इशारों पर
......
What do I want ?
What do I want ?
Did I ever think about it ?
Have I ever asked myself ?
Have I ever heard the voice of my heart ?
Have I ever asked myself
Where does my happiness lie ?
No I never thought about it
No I never asked myself .
Was just living my life
......
Looking up at the sky
Trying to make sense of it all
How do the stars neither fly
Nor tumble and fall?
Isn’t it great
This unique ability
To contemplate
Our own fragility
......
Who can detain me?
Unless I allow myself?
It's all right in here...
Hesitantly, I asked,
"Will you be mine?"
I want to love you during every phase; in fact, I always have.
Through persisting sickness and prosperous health.
Through devastating tragedies and fruitful fortune.
Through hopeless wanders and sincere belongings.
I don't look past your flaws; in fact, I know them well.
I hear tiredness in your voice, because you spent too much energy on others.
......
I know you didn't notice how cold I easily become,
But it's because of the world in my head,
Where it's just the two of us.
I know you aren't aware of all of you that there is to love,
But if you were to take a moment and look through my eyes,
You'd realize that you are worth more than everything you will ever want.
I know I haven't come to terms yet, that we are both too young,
But I'm going to stay here a little longer,
......
Walking down the giant road
Lights ever bright, beings unknown
I'm the alien, displaced and lone
In this strange realm I can't call home
Adrift in a sea where I'll never belong
Peering at fractured reflections, feeling so wrong
But then a few souls, with welcoming grace
Reached out to this alien, fashioned a place
......
Walking into the garden
with my third eye open
Destined for all the dirt
that will seep in
between my toes
To watch every sunrise
and every sunset
surrounded by vivacious greenery
......