watermelon toes
I don’t know how to say no
scalloped shrieks
floating where the wind blows
never mind holding the heaviest load
I’m so magical—I could make you explode
didn’t even give me a chance to say yes
before coming to rest on my sweet head
......
Nostrils wake my water child
salted taste of ocean breeze.
Primordial breath
bays a briny bawl
happy home is here.
Waters capped in white by wind
push against tide.
Waves perish in sand.
Memories paint the shore
......
I’m tired of putting makeup on
I feel like a chameleon trying to disguise itself in the wild
I try to practice but the mirror doesn’t look the way I want it to
I go to school wearing a mask I made
I’m a duck trying to disguise itself with a group of swans
The feeling of regret when I look in the mirror drowns me when I realize what I done to myself
I can never edit my face the way a plastic surgeon does
When I think about it I know I’ll never be satisfied with
What the mirror shows me
......
I long for a different version of myself.
A me who hasn’t made a mistake,
A me who was a better friend, a better child.
I long for a me who is social,
A me without flaw,
A me without a bad experience
11/20/23
Let Go of Your Fear
Allow yourself to drop the armor that surrounds you...
Allow yourself to go deep inside to your core...
Let go of your fear...
No one can cause you harm unless you allow them to do so...
You are truly in control of your own life if you simply allow your Higher Power to give you direction...
......
A bitter youth boards a yellow bus
Impatient, petulant child, hardened by hurt
Each rule a challenge... accepted... defeated
Malicious moves, drawing blood first
School ends... lessons continue
Building character, life and family
Settled into (or for) what is (or was) in front of him
Same stuff different day (life is what you make it)
......
Nostrils wake my water child
salted taste of ocean breeze.
Primordial breath
bays a briny bawl
happy home is here.
Waters capped in white by wind
push against tide.
Waves perish in sand.
Memories paint the shore
......
If every mirror on every wall,
Could show the truth to one and all.
Looking past what we disguise,
Show us truths and end the lies.
Please don’t show us only good,
Reflect much deeper, if you would.
Show our sins and show us lie,
Show times we hurt the other guy.
......
I long for a different version of myself.
A me who hasn’t made a mistake,
A me who was a better friend, a better child.
I long for a me who is social,
A me without flaw,
A me without a bad experience
11/20/23
clouds rain
eyes strain
through liquid lines on window pane
lines arc
mind sparks
seeking secrets in the dark
clock ticks
thoughts flick
philosopher to lunatic
booms crack
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