I am the echo of your wants,
a whisper you can’t chase.
And when you reach for me,
I’m gone—like smoke you can't erase.
I've got some tricks tucked up my sleeve.
I've become someone I hate.
If you're drawn to pain, come closer—
I’ll hand you all my weight.
......
I said I wanted quiet—
now I flinch when I get it.
There’s a hum in the silence
that sounds like regret,
but I don’t name it.
Not out loud.
I still walk like I’m untouchable.
Still flirt with ruin like it’s mine to keep.
But some nights, I miss softness
......
If I died
Would you be there darling
To carry the burden of abandonment in your shoulders
I mean my corpse
Would you be there
So you could taste the long rainy nights
Through your tears
Tears of pain, maybe regret
If I died
Would you be there
......
The one who drives me crazy
Yet still makes me feel safe
Although I scream and snap at you
You still put up with me.
It's an honor to be your girlfriend
Anybody else would agree
You're so much greener than a flag
And your generosity never ends.
......
It's been a while since I wrote about anything
Obviously I thought I could manage to get everything
As fast as I could
Not as slow as it should
I rushed over life's pages
Got myself trapped in multiple cages
If I could only express regret in tears
I would be able to erase all my fears
But oh no! I just can't seem to cry
My sense of humanity has gone dry.
......
The one who drives me crazy
Yet still makes me feel safe
Although I scream and snap at you
You still put up with me.
It's an honor to be your girlfriend
Anybody else would agree
You're so much greener than a flag
And your generosity never ends.
......
I said I wanted quiet—
now I flinch when I get it.
There’s a hum in the silence
that sounds like regret,
but I don’t name it.
Not out loud.
I still walk like I’m untouchable.
Still flirt with ruin like it’s mine to keep.
But some nights, I miss softness
......
I am the echo of your wants,
a whisper you can’t chase.
And when you reach for me,
I’m gone—like smoke you can't erase.
I've got some tricks tucked up my sleeve.
I've become someone I hate.
If you're drawn to pain, come closer—
I’ll hand you all my weight.
......
(villanelle)
Once, in my youth, I shot a bird
The bullet box gave the warning
I was “range one mile” empowered
I owned a gun with bead sight forward
In birch-edged lea, alone one morning
Once, in my youth I shot a bird
......
q u e t c h
Tendril wafted dunes
of barren sands waffle,
swirl across mile
upon mile in every direction-
your face appears a horizon away,
there is little comfort found
in accompanying echoes.
......