Unfasten,
warm air
into
my nights,
ignite a fire
in my bosom.
Sink me
in your
heartbeats.
seep into
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Arun Uddalok at the Face of Crumbling Down
In Search of Buno Ramnath
The Blind Monk and the King
Musing on Shopping Mall
Lime Maker of Basapara
......
So desperately i tried to right my wrongs, healing the scars i had left behind.
Such a terrible card i dealt him because i was incapable of loving him.
All the times i told him how much i hated him making sure he knew how little he was worth.
How afraid he must have been of me, each time i showed up more battered then the last.
So regretfully i hugged the boy in the mirror.
A soft touch on your skin when you’re upset.
A comforting body when you need someone to hold.
A loving person in times you feel lonely.
Most important someone who loves you for you, and is proud of your existence.
It’s hard to explain why I miss something that was never there. It’s even harder to imagine how it would feel, have you not experienced it yourself.
It baffles me that this is something I could not experience myself. I envy everyone who did.
Maybe I would be more human, instead I’m full of hatred.
......
I despise the ocean
but this girl in my head does not
She is not afraid to love
and she is not afraid to rot
And if it can't be perfect
then it shan't be done at all
Tip back in your chair
Slam your head against the wall
......
If you want something
Believe In it
Achieve it
I didn't realize that until I had wrote my first poem
I had not thought I was able to do anything until one day
I had gone through everything and couldnt do it
But...that was because I was trying to find an excuse to do something
I hadn't believed in it
I just did it without believing
Then I changed my mind
......
maybe you see me as a mistake
but i try everyday to be awake
and be the cherry on cake
a shadow that you wanted to make
maybe you never wanted me
but i try to make that never escape
and be the one that could still stay
at least that shadow for which you would have pray
......
A soft touch on your skin when you’re upset.
A comforting body when you need someone to hold.
A loving person in times you feel lonely.
Most important someone who loves you for you, and is proud of your existence.
It’s hard to explain why I miss something that was never there. It’s even harder to imagine how it would feel, have you not experienced it yourself.
It baffles me that this is something I could not experience myself. I envy everyone who did.
Maybe I would be more human, instead I’m full of hatred.
......
"Blues Of An Eleven Year Old"
I wonder how it was for her
To be with you.
And I wonder very often
What it is like - to be you.
......
"The Battle of Life Is Fought Uphill"
was daddy’s favorite quote, till
it was finally inscribed
on his gravestone,
right at the foot of the hill,
......