I despise the ocean
but this girl in my head does not
She is not afraid to love
and she is not afraid to rot
And if it can't be perfect
then it shan't be done at all
Tip back in your chair
Slam your head against the wall
......
"The Battle of Life Is Fought Uphill"
was daddy’s favorite quote, till
it was finally inscribed
on his gravestone,
right at the foot of the hill,
......
When I'm with you
Your happiness is catching
Getting caught on my skin
spreading through me like wildfire
All over me
And into me
Deep into my soul
Until my heart is ablaze
A fire with everlasting radiant warmth
When you think of flowers
blooming you think of the
stages they must go through-
to get to the point of being
admired by the world, even
captivating a lover's eye-
as if it is waiting to be plucked and cherished eagerly.
But the ones I cherish
bloom in my heart. You planted
them there so unexpectedly.
......
So desperately i tried to right my wrongs, healing the scars i had left behind.
Such a terrible card i dealt him because i was incapable of loving him.
All the times i told him how much i hated him making sure he knew how little he was worth.
How afraid he must have been of me, each time i showed up more battered then the last.
So regretfully i hugged the boy in the mirror.
A soft touch on your skin when you’re upset.
A comforting body when you need someone to hold.
A loving person in times you feel lonely.
Most important someone who loves you for you, and is proud of your existence.
It’s hard to explain why I miss something that was never there. It’s even harder to imagine how it would feel, have you not experienced it yourself.
It baffles me that this is something I could not experience myself. I envy everyone who did.
Maybe I would be more human, instead I’m full of hatred.
......
"Blues Of An Eleven Year Old"
I wonder how it was for her
To be with you.
And I wonder very often
What it is like - to be you.
......
"The Battle of Life Is Fought Uphill"
was daddy’s favorite quote, till
it was finally inscribed
on his gravestone,
right at the foot of the hill,
......
I despise the ocean
but this girl in my head does not
She is not afraid to love
and she is not afraid to rot
And if it can't be perfect
then it shan't be done at all
Tip back in your chair
Slam your head against the wall
......
When you think of flowers
blooming you think of the
stages they must go through-
to get to the point of being
admired by the world, even
captivating a lover's eye-
as if it is waiting to be plucked and cherished eagerly.
But the ones I cherish
bloom in my heart. You planted
them there so unexpectedly.
......