The sea turned rough with me today.
I sailed with a lad of eight.
He loosed the rigging, dove overboard,
and left me drifting in his wake.
Where art thou, O little one?
Thou art radiant in thy wild grace,
Even when thou dost stumble,
When thou trippest and skinnest thy knees
Or when thy lungs spew dragon-flame.
......
You were quiet, then,
moving carefully,
weighing each step,
as if the world might vanish
if you rushed.
You wondered
if you were enough
for all that waited beyond.
The world pressed in—
too many voices, too many eyes
......
I despise the ocean
but this girl in my head does not
She is not afraid to love
and she is not afraid to rot
And if it can't be perfect
then it shan't be done at all
Tip back in your chair
Slam your head against the wall
......
Arun Uddalok at the Face of Crumbling Down
In Search of Buno Ramnath
The Blind Monk and the King
Musing on Shopping Mall
Lime Maker of Basapara
......
Swimming further and further down
Breathing becomes heavier
There’s no stopping, you want to see how far you can go
You’re passing every mistake you’ve ever made
The further you go the deeper into memories you are
Where does it end? Is the bottom near?
Slower
Swimming slower
Losing time and the ability to love
......
The sea turned rough with me today.
I sailed with a lad of eight.
He loosed the rigging, dove overboard,
and left me drifting in his wake.
Where art thou, O little one?
Thou art radiant in thy wild grace,
Even when thou dost stumble,
When thou trippest and skinnest thy knees
Or when thy lungs spew dragon-flame.
......
You were quiet, then,
moving carefully,
weighing each step,
as if the world might vanish
if you rushed.
You wondered
if you were enough
for all that waited beyond.
The world pressed in—
too many voices, too many eyes
......
If you want something
Believe In it
Achieve it
I didn't realize that until I had wrote my first poem
I had not thought I was able to do anything until one day
I had gone through everything and couldnt do it
But...that was because I was trying to find an excuse to do something
I hadn't believed in it
I just did it without believing
Then I changed my mind
......
maybe you see me as a mistake
but i try everyday to be awake
and be the cherry on cake
a shadow that you wanted to make
maybe you never wanted me
but i try to make that never escape
and be the one that could still stay
at least that shadow for which you would have pray
......
A soft touch on your skin when you’re upset.
A comforting body when you need someone to hold.
A loving person in times you feel lonely.
Most important someone who loves you for you, and is proud of your existence.
It’s hard to explain why I miss something that was never there. It’s even harder to imagine how it would feel, have you not experienced it yourself.
It baffles me that this is something I could not experience myself. I envy everyone who did.
Maybe I would be more human, instead I’m full of hatred.
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