Yes, there was a time
I was obsessed by melancholy,
I saw deep sadness,
The quality that so tormented
My former favoured idols,
Poets, painters,
Musicians, actors,
Creators of every kind,
As glamorous and romantic,
But it’s not,
......
Heavy and prominent your words trapped between my heart and a paper weight
Effortlessly and uncontrollable I’ve accepted our fait like the sun accepts my skin
Forcefully with intention my knuckles turn white choking your memory
What's wrong? She asked...
and then there was a long silence...
"nothing," he said...
between 20,000 thoughts he was fighting instead,
For he had been waiting for a reply...
for her to say "I love you too"...
but, there she stood unaware...
that her silence has opened up 20,000 insecurities of the man ahead...
......
I see him come in, after our dinner with a smirk in his face,
looking at you, as a tool, he will soon abase,
annoyed with his untimely presence, I grin with haste,
while he stares at your chest, even while untying his shoelace,
You hug him in front of me, dreamy and bright,
Showing him to your room, excited for the night
My sunken heart can't deal with this plight,
I probably won't be sleeping as well tonight,
......
You are a fire burning from afar at night
seen by every thought and every question
and every doubt birthed by the fog that was my mind
you are the question mark that mocks the end
the hyphen that frays me
You are my moon, throned in
the starless night that is my
memory. tides flood my shores
ripples of longing as you circle
......
I am hurting for yr body
Naked in the corner there
Where the Greek sun shines
Yr innocence is not anywhere
You lost it long ago
And I want for yr touch to teach me
As my inexperience craves for knowledge
Only you can give
The warm, summer wind lies on our bodies
Kissing them with delight
......
i love you so
(i hate myself)
i admire your depth,
(i feel so hollow all the time)
your words send shivers down my spine
(yet i'm empty, formless)
i'd shout about you from the rooftops
......
You are a fire burning from afar at night
seen by every thought and every question
and every doubt birthed by the fog that was my mind
you are the question mark that mocks the end
the hyphen that frays me
You are my moon, throned in
the starless night that is my
memory. tides flood my shores
ripples of longing as you circle
......
Valentine, Valentine,
Why do you refuse to be mine...
I send you expensive gifts
of red roses and fine wine...
I invite you to fancy restaurants,
And theatre and to the play...
You treat me with distain
And you tell me to ‘stay away’
......
Stone by stone
I build your home
Piece by piece
A structure forms
To keep you safe
To keep you whole
Even as your teardrops roll
Stone by stone
I build your home
......