The slightest inconveniences for you, influence your attempted defamations,
And they leave me defenseless against a grudging exasperation, accompanied with self-deprecation.
I lie here, wondering what peace actually feels like,
Because I've acquired familiar lonesome, daydreams of my death, and the infamous bright light.
Enjoying life is tough, and perhaps I have a lifetime left to live,
However, the enjoying part is rough because I can't enjoy anything demanding my mental health expense.
Moderation is out of reach, and my priorities are out of line;
......
The slightest inconveniences for you, influence your attempted defamations,
And they leave me defenseless against a grudging exasperation, accompanied with self-deprecation.
I lie here, wondering what peace actually feels like,
Because I've acquired familiar lonesome, daydreams of my death, and the infamous bright light.
Enjoying life is tough, and perhaps I have a lifetime left to live,
However, the enjoying part is rough because I can't enjoy anything demanding my mental health expense.
Moderation is out of reach, and my priorities are out of line;
......