I’ve often wondered who I am
I pondered who gave birth to me
I wondered why you gave me up
I asked if this was meant to be
I wondered why I never knew
That my new mother had replaced you
She gave me love and tender care
Made sacrifices for me each day, each year
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I am plump, buxom
Of a pillow
Relatively happy
To shoulder the load
Of only a single head,
And carry the dust
and dirt oily
all through the weeks.
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I trace the cracks within myself,
yet find none upon you—
Your skin, a barren canvas,
untouched by time or flaw,
While mine, a weathered map,
etched by stares that linger too long.
You label yourself two-faced,
but I only set eyes on one
side of the wall.
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If the world decides to go pitch black
I’ll follow you into the dark
We’ll light a torch
Find our own path through the rubble
Through the dismay
The tears will seal the walls of our home
The foundation will come from us
We will be warriors
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My dearest dear Be’er
That is what I always called you.
Endearing, to say the least
Although you now cease to exist,
my memories of you will never cease
As in my heart, you live forever
But how I do miss you
More than you could ever know
All that I ever wanted was a better life
For us three
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I trace the cracks within myself,
yet find none upon you—
Your skin, a barren canvas,
untouched by time or flaw,
While mine, a weathered map,
etched by stares that linger too long.
You label yourself two-faced,
but I only set eyes on one
side of the wall.
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All you told were lies,
And I hid behind the wall I built while you were telling me how good I made you feel.
All I did was try and please your appetite,
But your ego was droughty and left me for dead with only evaporites.
All we were was just a summertime's fun,
Because we bought into the scam of 'you only live once'.
Of all the cultures there are to experience and all the lessons we have to learn,
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I'm a man of my word today
Because you never believed me when I told you why I was crying
I'm a man of my word today
I was a child then and somehow I was always your enemy
I'm a man of my word today
Because you told me you'd reject me
If I put myself first before my parent's priorities
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Tonight, I’d like to take my mother’s hand
Don’t replace my mother
Tomorrow and the day after
I’d want to remember my mother,
Don’t replace my her.
The next day and the following months
I’d like to keep her in my thoughts
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I as in me, in the sense I spew spitfire unapologetically
Left clear cast shadows of what I meant to say
Plastered on the foundation of who WE are.
I as in we, I stand by those who stand by me
Trust may be lost but loyalty shall stay
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