I wonder, were you it? Will anyone ever love me the way you loved me, or were you it? Will anyone ever lose sleep thinking about me, pining over me the way you did, or were you it? I think you were it. I can’t sleep because I think you were it. Because now there is nothing. It’s done. And I will never again be loved so deeply. And I will never again be wanted so deeply. And I will never again be the reason he can’t sleep. How could you have ever loved me. There is nothing here deserving of love. How did you see this mess as something worth loving. Will anyone else see me the way you did. Please tell me you weren’t it. Please tell me you were only the beginning. tell me there is more.
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The sunset lay beautifully in front of me,
I wiped my tears off of my face.
I finally see it for what it is,
After the divide.
I leave it all behind,
Leave my bags on the rock.
Watching as the sunset began to fade away,
......
Looking up at the sky
Trying to make sense of it all
How do the stars neither fly
Nor tumble and fall?
Isn’t it great
This unique ability
To contemplate
Our own fragility
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I walk away, life is irony itself,
a payback for the past, a consequence without a cause
I walk away, not to run, but to find strength to go on
I am not what you need and I am not what you want,
you must chase your own personal mirage
I didn’t ask for this, I did not want it, I was content and at peace,
and here it is, a small crack in my defences and you blew open the wall
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As she walks away
To a new life
A new, alien life that I won’t be a part of
Thunder fills the untamed decibels in the air
The atmosphere shifts
With each vibration
As sound permeates every centimeter of earth
You can feel it coming
The water, meant to rejuvenate life on this planet
It means to start anew
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The sunset lay beautifully in front of me,
I wiped my tears off of my face.
I finally see it for what it is,
After the divide.
I leave it all behind,
Leave my bags on the rock.
Watching as the sunset began to fade away,
......
Gentle is the river that runs
Throughmy heart
Calming my body from heartache
I know you need to leave
With all my questioning , I suppose
You crave getting away
However, I know If you stay, you'll regret it
And we'll fight endlessly
Until someone exhaust the purpose
Making you prisoner wasn't my idea
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Made myself bleed
From anxiety
Baby don’t you see?
I don’t feel the heat
And I don’t feel seen
This physical fatality
I thought went deeper
But this mountain-
It’s getting
Steeper
......
Looking up at the sky
Trying to make sense of it all
How do the stars neither fly
Nor tumble and fall?
Isn’t it great
This unique ability
To contemplate
Our own fragility
......
all these words never said
and the happy songs that
turned sad in my head
i should have given up by now
but you know how i am
i have no more a larger piece of your life
than that which you give me and
this is just another worn out story
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