If pain were a bucket,
You'd be the largest one,
Pouring your trauma out like a faucet
Unto those who show you love
You're like a raging storm,
Leaving destruction in its wake
With thunderous words filled with hate
Yet still, I saw in you the potential to create
When you saw yourself as someone who should have never been born
......
i was the moon, soft and steadfast,
lighting the way when the world grew dark,
whispering light into heavy hearts,
a quiet companion, never too far.
i cheered for the stars as they blazed their trails,
watched them shine and heard their tales.
i clapped for the sun, so bold, so bright,
though it never turned to share its light.
......
A book, hideous and white,
Half way through its fight,
Met a pen, high with might.
It's tip so smooth.
Ink like a soft flute.
It's form, loving and cute.
Now the book had this weired feel,
It thought the pen was here to fill.
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they called me kind, the selfless one,
a soul who’d never come undone.
but kindness bends, and kindness breaks—
even heroes have their stakes.
a joker’s laugh began to bloom,
when i gave joy and made more room,
for others’ needs, their endless cries,
while my own dreams met their demise.
......
It's so much easier to pretend it isn't true
There's no way I could do that
I don't have that sort of desire
But as much as it hurts me I can't imagine how it hurts you
The evil inside of me was great even then
You'd think I was too young
I couldn't think that
But it's awful and I'm hardly taking it in
......
If pain were a bucket,
You'd be the largest one,
Pouring your trauma out like a faucet
Unto those who show you love
You're like a raging storm,
Leaving destruction in its wake
With thunderous words filled with hate
Yet still, I saw in you the potential to create
When you saw yourself as someone who should have never been born
......
they called me kind, the selfless one,
a soul who’d never come undone.
but kindness bends, and kindness breaks—
even heroes have their stakes.
a joker’s laugh began to bloom,
when i gave joy and made more room,
for others’ needs, their endless cries,
while my own dreams met their demise.
......
i wish i could be loved the way the stars are loved—
without expectation, without effort,
just for the simple fact of existing,
just for the quiet burn of my light.
but i am not the stars.
i am flawed and fleeting,
my edges rough, my brightness dim.
i bend myself into shapes that ache,
trying to fit the mold of "worthy,"
......
i was the moon, soft and steadfast,
lighting the way when the world grew dark,
whispering light into heavy hearts,
a quiet companion, never too far.
i cheered for the stars as they blazed their trails,
watched them shine and heard their tales.
i clapped for the sun, so bold, so bright,
though it never turned to share its light.
......
If Life is easy,
why do we strive?
And search for hope,
to keep us alive.
And feel the pressure,
which causes pain.
And leaves a mark,
or an ugly stain
It makes me wonder,
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