Hhhhh Poems
Bewitched
by Tammy Darby
There was no choice except to lie about the drug use though everyone in town knew the truth. He was a heavy cranker, a tweaker and tried to keep it secret then the inevitable came, long under drug-induced strain, its parts wearing out, his heart started failing.
He had done the drug for a long time and did a good job of hiding it from most of the people in town until his best friend revealed his habit to a person close to him.
At first, he tried to explain it away by telling everyone it was a disorder ran in his family but those that did the white powder lines with him just laughed. They knew why he was having problems with his heart and soon they would be too. But the damage was done and there were no stories or excuses he could use to cover his operations and hospital stays anymore and soon the whole town knew what he was. He had hidden the instances of violence against women and kept the cops at bay by snitching when he had a little useable information and they cut him a little slack for his efforts.
But everything had changed. He became thin, gaunt and black blue circles appeared underneath his eyes, his hair fell out and he became an old man what seemed like overnight. Afraid, and rightly so, he wondered if this was the price he paid for his treacherous behavior. For the lies, he told her, the promises he broke and the damage he inflicted because of his greed. For the lives, he had destroyed from his past.
He could not shake these perceptions that tortured him night and day sitting in the back of his brain like a tightening knot that refused to be expelled. It weighed heavy on his heart and more so in his mind until his thoughts turned inward and outward and twisted like snakes. Then he remembered the last words she spoke; the crying and chills ran through his body, he began to violently tremble and his breathing quickened with the memory of her.
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Only a Backward Glance do I Give
by Tammy Darby
Before opening the door of the lost
Perchance I will find the healing salve I seek
Its warmth melts the forlorn depths of my heart
Only emptiness remaining
Leaving the soul hollow and soiled
No longer the betrayer love controls my emotions
Bitterness the ruler of my isolated world
So, pardon me if soon I speak no more
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The end of man draws nigh
by Tammy Darby
It will come in the silence of the sleeping night
When the blue comet streaks the star-filled skies
The tides flow no more
The night bird sighs
The end of man draws nigh
It will come in the silence of the sleeping night
The yellow comet shall blaze across star-filled skies
As humans wallow in restless slumber
And the helpless infant cries
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As You Tip Toe through Time
by Tammy Darby
In the back of your mind
Do you pause to recall only pleasant memories
And from your own hearts self secret, the rest
You know, the ones of whom I speak
Birthed, they were in thoughts, slumber,
The shadows that you cannot expel
Of which you cannot speak
Holding them close to your breast
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I Brought You Death
by Tammy Darby
Without conscience, you destroyed my life
In fair trade
I brought you death
The ghosts of fear, paranoia, cold chaos and loss of breath.
From my mouth flew the chill of darkness
Words of the dreaded coming I spoke
Tales of the whispered nevermore
Brought forth from tear-spattered pages
From a heart rendered glacial and forever torn
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Death Smiled at me Sweetly
by Tammy Darby
Being weary of this world
I graciously returned the smile
Banish the tribulations of living he said
Let us together for a moment halt time
He spoke of a sphere know only to the dead
Where heartbreak and pain did not exist
And as I listened closely the more he spoke
Being quite at my ease
The more I was inclined not to resist
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Only a Backward Glance do I Give
by Tammy Darby
Before opening the door of the lost
Perchance I will find the healing salve I seek
Its warmth melts the forlorn depths of my heart
Only emptiness remaining
Leaving the soul hollow and soiled
No longer the betrayer love controls my emotions
Bitterness the ruler of my isolated world
So, pardon me if soon I speak no more
......
As You Tip Toe through Time
by Tammy Darby
In the back of your mind
Do you pause to recall only pleasant memories
And from your own hearts self secret, the rest
You know, the ones of whom I speak
Birthed, they were in thoughts, slumber,
The shadows that you cannot expel
Of which you cannot speak
Holding them close to your breast
......
When the world overtakes your heart and mind
by Tammy Darby
To survive
You must seek refuge in an environment of script and rhyme
You are a poet and possess the ability to move from plane to plane
Lock away the memories and reality that leave you in despair
Erase the trouble that disturbs you with the hand and pen
Press down firmly, and allow your imagination to lead
Allow the ink to defeat the pain that besets you, and often, no one sees
Tell us instead through your eyes
Of the conflicts you face,
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Bewitched
by Tammy Darby
There was no choice except to lie about the drug use though everyone in town knew the truth. He was a heavy cranker, a tweaker and tried to keep it secret then the inevitable came, long under drug-induced strain, its parts wearing out, his heart started failing.
He had done the drug for a long time and did a good job of hiding it from most of the people in town until his best friend revealed his habit to a person close to him.
At first, he tried to explain it away by telling everyone it was a disorder ran in his family but those that did the white powder lines with him just laughed. They knew why he was having problems with his heart and soon they would be too. But the damage was done and there were no stories or excuses he could use to cover his operations and hospital stays anymore and soon the whole town knew what he was. He had hidden the instances of violence against women and kept the cops at bay by snitching when he had a little useable information and they cut him a little slack for his efforts.
But everything had changed. He became thin, gaunt and black blue circles appeared underneath his eyes, his hair fell out and he became an old man what seemed like overnight. Afraid, and rightly so, he wondered if this was the price he paid for his treacherous behavior. For the lies, he told her, the promises he broke and the damage he inflicted because of his greed. For the lives, he had destroyed from his past.
He could not shake these perceptions that tortured him night and day sitting in the back of his brain like a tightening knot that refused to be expelled. It weighed heavy on his heart and more so in his mind until his thoughts turned inward and outward and twisted like snakes. Then he remembered the last words she spoke; the crying and chills ran through his body, he began to violently tremble and his breathing quickened with the memory of her.
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