Heavy is the head that wears the crown,
The royal blue keeps wrapping round my heart.
Pushing me down, I’m about to drown.
It’s fine, I want to depart.
A brave new world I’ll find,
An ethereal place for your eternal beauty,
Where nobody’s going to mind,
A place where we won’t be on duty.
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I’ve never known love
Grace, I showed
Intelligence, I possessed
Attention, I did not lack
With a man always at my back
Countless hearts, I used
Until they bruised
Meticulously, I dwindled men
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In the quiet of my home,
where I thought I’d found some peace,
He hid his eyes in shadows,
his cruelty never ceased.
With cameras set in secret,
to watch me through my strife,
He recorded every struggle,
every moment of my life.
His goal was not just to hurt,
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As I lay me down to sleep,
I ask God not my soul to keep;
But rather pray, my heart to save,
From sure and certain early grave.
In broken pieces there he lies
Within my chest and slowly dies;
As life’s cruelty, rooted so deep,
Cause tears of blood when he dares weep.
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I’m used to it by now.
Nothing can surprise me.
I’m not your puppet, I never was.
I’ve cut myself loose.
I could have anyone else but you.
What is wrong with you?
No.
What is wrong with me?
I want to cry, and never stop.
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Why am I here again
Time after time after time
Why have tears become an abundance
Time after time after time
Why does failure always stay and accomplishment always go
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I think I started forgetting you
on a Wednesday afternoon,
somewhere between folding laundry
and listening to the rain tap the window.
It didn’t hurt,
not at first.
Just a small,
unnoticeable shift in the weather.
You were never mine.
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Nothing makes me happier than her—
the way her name feels
like a sunrise pressed into my chest,
how her laugh
sounded like something I used to pray for
before I knew how to put it into words.
And nothing makes me sadder than her—
the way she became
a recurring character in poems
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I strive to cast your shadow from my mind,
yet there you dwell,in corners hard to find.
Like whispers woven through the silent air,
your presence lingers,haunting everywhere.
I chase new dawns to wash you from my sight,
but memories emerge with morning's light.
In dreams, you wander through my night's domain,
a phantom tethered to my heart's refrain.
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Slipping.
Faster and faster.
Why won't you stay.
You don't need to go any faster.
I can keep up.
Promise me you will wait.
My hand is slipping may we please go slower.
Your hand moving away faster.
Please I want to hold onto you longer.
You're letting me go.
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