As I stand before the Lord,
I set down my sheild and sword,
Because it's hard to be strong
When God dictates you are wrong,
And what defense is proof
When no one cares what is the truth?
Cuz there's no way to fight,
If God is always right
And the angels stand,
......
My room is so messy
But I can't seem to clean
I try to explain it,
But I can't say what I mean.
My room is too stuffy,
Outside is too cold,
The dishes need washing
Before they grow mold.
......
I grabbed my coat and took off
Went out for a walk
I know I've been told
That the streets are cold.
The moment I took a step
I know I'm not safe
But it doesn't matter
Because I...didn't even matter.
......
She swallows the pill & it tastes
tastes like nothingness.
numbness takes over her body..
she thinks she’s forgotten why she
took it in the first place
til she looks across her room and is
wiped with memories
of her past lover.
but that exact moment she realizes
every i love you spoken was a lie,
......
I see them stressed, depressed, got worries they can't forget:
Here they are in all this pain
If only they could somehow change
So everybody is the same.
Then all their problems might just fade...
Distressed, compressed, their minds are all a mess,
Bridled, suicidal, they can't escape their titles.
They can't live here in all this pain,
Why can't everybody change
......
The darkness creeps
Slipping into my veins
Growing roots
That sink deeper by the day
No joy
Only sorrow
Sorrow and regret
I can't shake it away
......
isolated in self-doubt,
relishing the pain of insecurity,
at least i feel something.
indulging nicotine,
like a bladed fidget,
just to escape.
fleeing from freedom,
refuge in the familiar toxicity.
scared to fight for myself,
because what if the voice is right,
......
Every step I take,
Every move I make,
Everything I do
Ends up a mistake,
I fail,
And I try,
To start all over again
But
......
Some days are sad days
No reason is needed,
You don't find things fun,
Jokes go unheeded
You don't want to cry,
But you can't seem to smile,
You just kinda sit,
And stare at the wall for a while
......
My room is so messy
But I can't seem to clean
I try to explain it,
But I can't say what I mean.
My room is too stuffy,
Outside is too cold,
The dishes need washing
Before they grow mold.
......