My peanut butter eyes on caramel silk skin.
Butterflies flutter—folding in and famished—
beating and bowing before my bile-slick stomach.
Flirting with my heart—an empty love, lost and lame.
Pupils glued to my toes,
a sight caught in the corner of my vision—
bleeding blurry.
Fain to find myself blighted thin.
Shadows march through my veins—
......
i forgive my body
for all that she’s done
i free him from his sins
and nestle in her safety
i thank my body for protecting me
......
I’d like to return this.
It doesn’t fit me right.
It’s far too small, yet too big at the same time.
The zipper is stuck, it catches on my spine.
The material is far too uncomfortable.
I’d like to return this suit.
The coloring is off, there’s stains and marks all across the arms.
I think someone ripped it at the shoulder and tried to sew it back together again.
......
I wish people could see through my eyes
Hear through my ears
Cry through the night
And think my thoughts
I wish someone could feel my pain
Because maybe they wouldn't stare
And i wouldn't feel the glares
They wouldn't talk about me
And would know that behind every person
That talks about me
......
I relapsed—
After my shift
Rushed to the bathroom
Purged it all out
I hate this brain
That makes me hurt myself
I'm just so tired
Of never feeling worthy
Always second choice
Not valued, passed over
......
My peanut butter eyes on caramel silk skin.
Butterflies flutter—folding in and famished—
beating and bowing before my bile-slick stomach.
Flirting with my heart—an empty love, lost and lame.
Pupils glued to my toes,
a sight caught in the corner of my vision—
bleeding blurry.
Fain to find myself blighted thin.
Shadows march through my veins—
......
I relapsed—
After my shift
Rushed to the bathroom
Purged it all out
I hate this brain
That makes me hurt myself
I'm just so tired
Of never feeling worthy
Always second choice
Not valued, passed over
......
I wish people could see through my eyes
Hear through my ears
Cry through the night
And think my thoughts
I wish someone could feel my pain
Because maybe they wouldn't stare
And i wouldn't feel the glares
They wouldn't talk about me
And would know that behind every person
That talks about me
......
The mirrors in this house leer at me
They taunt me
Come, look!
They say
I don't want to look, I know what I'll see
Red dots scattered across my forehead and cheeks
Eyebrows that are just a bit to bushy and a unibrow that never quite goes away
Lips that don't match the bottom much to big for the top
Two chins.
Hair that never seems to stay in place
......
I’d like to return this.
It doesn’t fit me right.
It’s far too small, yet too big at the same time.
The zipper is stuck, it catches on my spine.
The material is far too uncomfortable.
I’d like to return this suit.
The coloring is off, there’s stains and marks all across the arms.
I think someone ripped it at the shoulder and tried to sew it back together again.
......