Somewhere in the garden,
There's a statue of me and you,
Coated in gold and made out of clay,
And they'll honour it and love it,
They'll covet it and want it,
Right up until they throw it away,
Till the gold has all been stolen,
The clay is cracked and broken,
......
If you ain't got family
Damn (then?) you don't have anything
There's nobody home
But they're there just the same
Ghosts with eyes you can't see
Watching from the corners like creeps
It's so scary and it's shameful I wish I had a family who wanted me
Home, I just want to be home
......
There's always pain in the music of the night
It summons all my broken dreams to come dance about my mind,
And in their fractured shadows, I contemplate your plight
Yet in that frantic jig, no answers can I find.
Nothing I consider can justify your bitter flight,
When by all your wretched flaws you were confined
All my strength of will cannot manifest my dreams that we'd reunite.
Were you scared of yourself, or this child you left behind?
My heart bleeds with tormented hate, as I sit beneath the midnight sun
......
Your love was all I wanted.
Your approval.
To hear “ Im proud of you son “
To be raised by you.
I wanted to come home and run to your arms.
And to work in the garage with you.
I wanted you to teach me to drive my first car.
And how to shave.
And help me with homework at the kitchen table.
For so long I dreamed of having that.
......
Nothing wilts faster than a flower in snow
No matter how much you love it, cold stiffens its growth
See, a flower thats covered by droplets of ice
Is mistaken for beauty and it comes with a price
Where no sun reaches leaves to fill it with warmth
A flower will struggle to maintain its form
Remember that rose that I gave you before
It was a piece of my heart and it left me still sore
......
Nothing wilts faster than a flower in snow
No matter how much you love it, cold stiffens its growth
See, a flower thats covered by droplets of ice
Is mistaken for beauty and it comes with a price
Where no sun reaches leaves to fill it with warmth
A flower will struggle to maintain its form
Remember that rose that I gave you before
It was a piece of my heart and it left me still sore
......
Your love was all I wanted.
Your approval.
To hear “ Im proud of you son “
To be raised by you.
I wanted to come home and run to your arms.
And to work in the garage with you.
I wanted you to teach me to drive my first car.
And how to shave.
And help me with homework at the kitchen table.
For so long I dreamed of having that.
......
I wrote some words
From the deepest of my soul
Wrote them on my right knee
Should I stay or should I go
I've had showers and
I've changed my clothes
But I keep them where you can't see
Let me die. Kill me, please.
......
If you ain't got family
Damn (then?) you don't have anything
There's nobody home
But they're there just the same
Ghosts with eyes you can't see
Watching from the corners like creeps
It's so scary and it's shameful I wish I had a family who wanted me
Home, I just want to be home
......
at least the clouds are
smiling back
they have faces and
souls
and they stare back from their
blue canvas,
down on his dirty, snot-smeared face
It’s a warm
......