Still water,
burnt stump.
Flame rears,
Black swan.
Narrow,
moon-shallowed river of night
flowing through
the wide Summer land
soon it will rise
to leave us upon
cold, rain-swept
Lying on a couch
exhausted from Youth
they came to me.
They said something about
emptying a cup
to be filled.
I said I was already hollow
They just nodded.
I felt a need to go
to the wash basin
and scrub
my fingerprints,
that had stained all they had touched,
from my hands.
One night
contemplating
the meaning of snow
They came for me
and hung me
upside down
from a star.
As light flowed into me
and Earth's darkness
bled out
they talked about
a lineage of
royal blood of light.
But as more coins
slipped from my pockets
and I became poorer
I began to doubt it.
I was chasing after the World
when a strong gust hit my face.
I turned
and something caught my eye
I turned about
and by unusual light
I saw the day was darkness
and the City
but a cemetery.
I had no option
but to walk
through
a long stretch of Time
to reach Here and Now.
Along the way
I was waylaid
by desire and despair
and when
those days came to their end
I would be at the window
gazing at the sea,
that seems to surround my life,
and I would always notice
someone looking at their watch.
Yet still
by the Unusual light
I was still in the maze
of the Necropolis.
A streetlight in the rain drips light
into a pool beneath
It might mean something
but its too wet
to stand here thinking upon it.
I look at the road
winding up ahead.
Each streetlight
the sun of another day.
Doors open and close all over the World
all Day long
Arrivals and departures.
Lounges in hospitals and airports.
We are all watching each other passing by,
passing through,
passing away.
And between entrance and exit
who looks for the hidden door?
How can I climb over
this tall wall of night
crowded with pictures,
pricked out by stars,
that would persuade my desire?
As I look for a way to scale
a Light slices through
revealing
infinite depth to be
painted on fabric.
There is an old man of me,
sitting in a chair
in a room
where the blackness
of the night thickens
and he is expiring.
When deep tiredness overwhelms me
from the failure I sink into
at the sight of further obstacles
and Death seems the easier,
even logical, way.
It draws me close to him
and I feel his weariness
seeping into my bones.
No wide blue sky.
A low ceiling of grey clouds
dull the day,
and blunt the imagination.
A house of Winter encloses
us within walls of rain.
Close the windows
and doors
and keep some Summer air
locked inside
They came for me again.
They took me to a field
and tied me to the ground.
I was of the Earth
for a thousand years.
So many seasons rolled over me.
I remember many things:
Every Spring,
gold-tipped lances of wheat
pierced through me.
There were Summers
when long hot days
stretched me till I cracked
and thirsted for the relief of rain.
there were Winters when
flood waters drowned me.
I remember
my burials in snow.
I remember giving much
fruitful bounty
but
then I would starve to a depriving desert.
Often children would play
and lovers roll in my grass.
There were Winters like war
and War like winter-
Men in uniform swept through like
a scythe
leaving
nothing but ruin
blood
and corpses in the mud.
One standing there
yelled out
"If this is the cost
the price is too high!"
His words were loud
and echoed awhile
but, eventually faded,
for Men,
unfortunately,
grow fatuous on peace.
I remember
seams of the earth splitting open
and flowers
flowing forth.
There were heavy cities built upon my chest,
fires that raged across my fields,
men who punctured my skin with flags.
By the Moon,
I see no darkness in the night.
No wild dogs of mine
lurk in the shadows.
Mindful,
I walk without fear.
Look at them
following the sleepwalker
who is stuck
in a dream of awakening.
When he awakes
they will
all be lost together
in a dark forest.
My dreams of tomorrow
are bigger
than that day is long
but they evaporate
leaving no scars
unlike
when young
and fragile
then the sky of my mind
was crowded with
multi-coloured,
glass flying machines
and when those dreams
crashed
the shards cut deep-
tears and darkness spilled,
from the disillusioned boy.
My Mother kept a warm house
and my Father
kept an eye on the clock.
But the walls that made
this house a home-
my parents,
have fallen.
I put down my pen and rise.
I went out walking
dressed in blue.
I stopped by a white-washed wall
and the golden sun pinned me there.
For a moment
I wanted to be there forever,
as if in a photograph
for there was in that moment
something eternal
but Time robbed me of this feeling
once more.
Then my road turned into a river
and it's swift flow robbed me of my clothing
and all I possessed
then began to tug at my flesh.
Is everything taken?
What can I be
that will not die?
What can I give
that will survive?
Yet more.
I see myself
lying anxious on the floor
of a house
with no walls,
with the weight of the night upon me.
I am depleted
of the courage and confidence
that I call my strength
I have no-one to lean upon.
Alone,
and my will-
my bone of fortitude
wrapped by a musculature of cold wind,
breaks.
All I can give you is that-
All is stolen from us by Death
for behind it's door
is our Real life
but the door is jammed,
and lightning begins
to pierce me.
How do I earn entry?
The electrical storm passes.
I walk outside.
Within the high dome of Night
all is still
and somewhat quiet.
There is always some traffic.
Mostly one can ignore one's Death
then, someone suddenly dies
and duty
sees you attend the funeral.
Someone-
you know who,
is watching me.
I feel uncomfortable under His scrutiny.
Questions about my life arise,
and always that particular
pin-pricking question upon which I squirm-
"What have you done?"