You call me dark.
You think am weird.
But don't you think that's unfair and a bit too stark?

You think I hide
a part of me................
But do you realise , I've never had YOU by my side?

You think I wear a mask
to show the world what am not.
But don't you think that being real is THE most difficult task?

You think and think
and keep judging me!
But never do you gauge where actually I sink?

I know I've made insanity the new sanity
I love the color red,
the oozing cauldron of it, invokes images......till unexplained?
I hurt myself with cuts and bruises
Do you think to achieve an end?
No, never.......
It's just to feel what it is to FEEL!!

Do I feel it? Can I really feel?
My blood soaked tissues I collect
to remind me of my incapabilities.
But do you realise ever
that not feeling pain is itself
the biggest pain?

A turbulent mind, a savage sea
Thoughts.....where pictures are all painted bright;
where black is the new white
and red is the color, not of blood
but of LIFE !

At times I wonder, you being you
Why can't you let me be....just ME!!'