Tears threaten with each breath
Memories tear at my heart
Redemption- lost in times of turmoil
Pride eats at my thoughts

I can't let them see me cry
I won't let them see me in pain
I shouldn't have let them in like that
I can't let them know I'm insane

So many things they want to know
Because I am so quiet about my past
So many lies in attempt to silence them
That exit my throat too easily, too fast

And I will never be forgiven
My sins won't be left alone
My mistakes won't be forgotten
They are written there in stone

So I close my eyes and rest my head
I try to calm the shaking
I breathe in deeper. deeper. deep.
I'm ready to stop trying.